i wanna be sweet.
i love sweet things...
strawberries, chocolates and sweets.

so much to tell you.
i'm dumb-founded.
not knowing why either.
someone please bring me out of this.

slept for the whole day

i'm down with flu.
bad condition this time..
Hengyong called.

monday supposingly is off.
going back at night for nightjob.
so most probably going at at 10pm?
will i be at home sleeping? lol.
anyone ask me out for a movie or a walk.
(:

the next day will be working afternoon shift.
working life.
someone please brighten up my world can?!
haaa!

what hurts the most..
i used to be the silly one

2 days course.

Attending lesson can be so bored.
I don't like it.

downpour

it's raining so heavily.
everyone don't catch a colddd~
;]

zqzqzq silly

i wanna ...

be happy every moment.
be the most fortunate girl.
be the apple of his eyes.

but
i unable to make myself happy every moment w/o him.
i can't be the most fortunate girl.
am i the apple of his eyes?

i'm always turning so mad this time.
1:28am.
looking out of the window.
the sparkling stars guilding me throughout,
slowly i can't even feel that u're right besides me.
perhaps there isn't any stars tonight ..
just imagining it.

zqzqzq.
;l rainbow is gone

Tiring work as usual.
Not knowing why, super tired today plus
i'm not concentrating!
But work with fun gappers is the best thing ;]]

I'm a good good girl today!
i laugh as much,
smile as much.
stone as much too.
lols~ Simply just being simple today.

on my way to work

Its always so cooling for rainy days..
yesterday a big big smile day..
hees.
but i'm not silly ok!
Just super surprised and shocked ;]

Turned in late last night but woke up
by calls from shop at 9AM..
cause changed of roster.
i'm working afternoon shift but staffs wasn't updated.
chill chill.

snow cornflakes for breakfast ftw!
someone told me ..
girls who like to look at stars will always get cheated in loves.
guys who like to watch stars is the one hurting the girls ;D
are you this way ?
zqzqzqzq . silly anyway

My rainbow is back. ;))))

Work is tiring..
US vip down to town.
stressed up, but lucky everything went smoothly..

supper-ed with gappers is always so fun.
benny, long, simon, emey, zax, jadon, cheowseng and shawn.
alright i'm the only lady again!
we trashed our everything.
work is horrible! NO MENTIONING OF WORK THINGS AFTER 11pm.
thanks.

tomorrow another long long day...
the shift this week just killed me straight..

tell me is just a dream.
a dream that u'll never here.
Never let me go out of ur hand.
i'm like living in the world with u ard,
yet can't even hold u tightly..

your love is really similar to bubbles,
it doesn't matter how light or heavy it is.
It's not on my hand.

My love is just like sky,
it doesn't matter how much i let loose or how much
i draw in, you're just the wind.
You came but u fall in love with the freedom,
but u left me but i didn't ask you for a reason..
I will spend my life well and waiting for you to come back.

i promises..

9 days already. ;]

I used to laugh alot,
smile alot.
Where is the laughter now?
murdered by workload. ;)

Afternoon today cause Anthony has something on tonight..
Tomorrow full shift. what kind of hours is this?
kill me straight LOL~
yesterday home sweet home,
ate snowcorn flakes for lunch with the mixture of strawberry milk..
overall it taste good.
And mooncake from jelly ;))
adorableee






我像是失去心跳的不倒翁动也不能动..
zqzqzq.

home sweet home today.
downpour in the earliest morning~
woke up by the rain and start sms-ing with kenneth ;)

fell dead on the bed at 7am.
woke up there's like 7 sms-es.
colleagues (5) jelly(1) ken (1)
;] flooded msges in the morning.
low batt phone can just kill it.

nothing is better than resting at home.
by doing nothing whole day.
i know a little dumb and wasteful but i'm just too
lazy to doll up and get my ass off my house.
so rather than that. home is the best ;))))
home alone today.
mummy work. dad work. brother working.
didi schooling.

where is my rainbow. my sunshine after the rain.

When working gets bored.
Sales is good today ;))

nothing to blog.
rainbow where are u ?

No promises given.
Daily routine ..

Buy strawberry milk , think of you.
On the phone, day-dream.
Put on a smile, drag myself to work.
My life changes without you.

where's my rainbow?
what's my rainbow doing?
pondering and wondering sometimes.
i'll never be the same. pouting to everything i sees.

Someone please bring me to FISH&CO for the fish&chip.
;) spastic.


i hate to look at stars alone, cause i'll do smth silly.

thanks for kenneth ;]

i find it a dread to go work now.
Not knowing why, in the past no matter how tired am i.
I won't ask not to go work, but now it is.

Is even fucking worst when people mocked at you saying u're not
doing anything. FUCK OFF.
" WTF u close 5.7k ? SO LITTLE? WTF U DOING "
this is what i get when i called back shop.
they assumed that im not doing anything, when im trying my best.

NO CUSTOMERS what the hell they want me to do?
buy all the products home to top up sales?
if they don't need me, let me go off.
i find it so irritated now by them.
let me off.. i regretted..
so much. for not studying in the past.

pissed off mood.
i'm losing my appetite, please buy me strawberry milk ;D

pardon me for those photos with the big big shades.
due to swollen puffy eyes.
supposingly meeting baobei peifen 2.30pm but i'm like dragging the time till
430pm.

cab-ed to plaza singapura, the sun super scorching. killing my eyes so openly.
roaming around alone cause baobei have not reach yet..
TCC when baobei and friends arrives.
mocha-villa just simply perks me up! totally awake from the midnight job.
walked around ps for like an hour plus.

baobei went home. left me and snow and friend.
walked to centrepoint, on our way.
bought some donuts for ourselves and 1 box for shop.
at least i still remember them but fucks. they dont bother. shuts.
settled down at centrepoint mac for donuts love.
and home sweet home.

Although today is for slacking, but i enjoyed myself.
the only thing that ruins, is my bloody eyes.
feeling uncomfortable with it. how i wish, i dug out my eyes to wash and cleanse it.
;]
oh ya. mooncake from jelly ;) thanks.

work full shift plus midnight.
it just kill my braincells and body.
this time was with anthony..
folding and steaming of all merchandise.
re-fold. re-fold. re-fold.
i worked from 9am to next day 730am.
how i wish im a superwoman. dont have to rest at all.

super stressed up at work.
nothing is more dreadful than going work now.
Anthony is leaving. stupid.
i'll be alone .
fucks~ i hate it..
i wanna run away from work ;]
slept for four hours..
meeting peifen baobei later !
shall blog about our slacking time @ bugis later.
loves loves.


u're the one .
my beautiful melody

How i wish, i can stop the time from moving..
the clock to stop ticking.

I want this moment to stop right now,
i hate 15 hours later. ;]
just hoping 15 hours don't come..
don't bring aus girl back, promised lols.

always be the one besides me,
cheer me up.
laugh with me.
tease me until i smile .
would you?
i suppose heaven is being kind to me,
the best gift given...

cherish & treasure.
the silly one .

he's a silly of mine. ZQ
;]

i want to look at the stars with u.
laughs with u.
will you ?

oh you light up my life
So I hope that the frequency of our hearts is the same
Add some feelings into the dream
Adding wings to thought
Love soars with unlimited possibilities
I want to share the future with you

.....

Sadly.. Anthony my best partner .
leaving gap. shit him for leaving...
fancy left me alone to suffer? thanks. i hate triangles.

you have me suicidal suicidal. ;)

morning blues for me.
thanks please don't talk to me in the morning.

a nightmare of u.
just wish that nothing will ever happens ;)
wtf am i doing? can't i just fucking don't bother anymore?
i knew i able to do it, knew that without you i'm still fucking living happily.

pudding done.
dumplings on the way ;))
i'm just cooking it for fun.
and eating it myself. ;)))

Fucking tired and listless today.
Met my bitch and have my fucking dinner.
Doesn't really taste nice? perhaps im too tired to eat,
bought ice cream and eat to cheer myself up.

Life still goes on, i can't possibly standing there not moving.
I tried not to think about anything other than work and play.
;]
i wanna lead back the life i used to.
but i still.. need someone to rely on. someone to love me. ;]
let heaven decide my fate.

photos show how bored can the three of us be when doing stocks.
anyway HAPPY BIRTHDAY KENNETH~
work is fun with jeannie..
super hardworking and lovable.
more sales pls ;D

i tends to forget things easily. someone just remind me ok?
i rather i forget everything ;D


i've learnt to let go of those memories. loves

i sneaked out at the back of the door to take a look at you.
dumb.
i knew i can never see u. cause u're always running away from me ;]

mini stock-take started.
so far so good alright..
Jeannie came back to work for us. Thumbs up.
another compliment larr.

i'll still smile..
;]

A song that reminds me of you.
something just cross my mind so happenly... you don't need me by your side.
no need me to remind u to sleep early.
but i wanted to so much..
just to call u to bed,
miss u.. but i just can't..

It's enough.. i'm sure.
work is never more fun then today..
everything went so smoothly so far, mini stock-take coming.
hope time can erase everything . even the slightest memory of u. ;(

葉子在窗外輕輕搖動
人行道沒有行人走過
鏡子裡的我很不像我
自從你離開了我變得很軟弱
你的影子在每一個角落
好像是在提醒著我
少了你的陪伴我現在有多寂寞
我想我可以習慣一個人生活
我想我可以假裝不曾愛過
冰涼的夜裡讓眼淚溫熱我
我想我可以習慣一個人生活
在記憶裡面擦去你的承諾
愛你怎麼會是這個結果
我想我可以習慣一個人生活
我想我可以假裝不曾愛過
感覺如果要走誰能說 NO
我想我可以習慣一個人生活
在記憶裡面擦去你的承諾
愛情是個夢而我睡過頭

i'm not immune to lies, but immune to liars.
tales and lies from you, just killed me straight away.
my heart is dead so is my fucking soul..

i choose not to believe in words from people
just a protection for myself to get hurt again.
ever thought of suicide, to end everything.
But no, i know u wont fucking shed a tear or even bother if i ever
leave here. So i'm gonna live my life fucking happy without you.

i promise...

picked me up from the mid of the busy road,
saying that u'll take good care of me.
this kind of lies, i will NEVER believe.
prove to me that u're trueful if not just don't fucking step into my life.


my heartbreaking day. ;) i'll remember it..

multiple post.
sentimental songs reminds me lots of things.
slowly i'm getting used that u're never with me.

those things u promised, is simply lies. ;]
i'm immune to it. fuck it alright?
cause i ain't ur love puppet, threw me aside as and when u like.
from that day onwards, i promise not to fall in love with the future.
in the mid of the busy road, i don't see u around me.

i'm being left to walk alone this time round or perhaps
im walking alone along.. u're just someone whom i dont wish to know.
someone that i wanted to let go so much so badly...
my heart is numb. numb by all those lies and illusionary lovewords.
i don't wish to have a day that gonna name it as heartbreaking day.
thanks. fuck off. i am who i am...

unwillingly is what my heart telling me. just give up its what my mind is telling me now..

you're walking further away from me ..
slowly i can't even see ur back anymore.
i assumed u're lying all these while, u've no intention to take care of me?

assume . assume .
all i can do now is assume that i never like u, it might makes my life happier.
this is life. playing and toying of feelings seems like a trend just that who is the one toying?
true. reality sucks big time! I don't owe ppl a living, dont let me be the one that drags ur whole life down. I'll , if u hurt me.

people come and go everyday, are u just a passer-by in my life?
a passer-by that threw away my heart? or just that to pass time. shit.
fucks. i hate it, especially those feelings.. mixed feelings. confusion can just kill me straight away so is broken heart.

Been such a long time, didn't really sit down enjoy a cup for Ice chocolate.
Thanks to Anthony & my beloved jolene ;))

Finished work late at around 730pm, been receiving calls from Anthony asking me to join he and jolene over for a drink or something.. ;)
Met them at ParkLane MR BEAN'S cafe.
Nice environment, a very nice place to grumble to them ; nice place for chilling ...
Chatted, grumbling, gossiping, past & present. Dislikes / likes.
Everything just spurts out whenever with Jolene and Anthony..
Feel doubly comfort with them around, no worries to talk about anything!

Got a little emo-ed when i told jolene about what happen..
duhs but im alright okay? ;))
Oh ya. Got a gift from anthony~ anyway its nice alright! lols
but shall wear it out when with you and jolene if not NO!
Planned to go clubbing / drinking with Jolene, Anthony, Albin blah blah..
most probably when nxt pay day or somehow when everyone is back to free period! ;)
Gappers are fun. i mean SOME GAPPERS are fun-loving..

I ain't that perfect, so dont tell me that how much u love me in the past. I don't look back, i'll only keep on walking until u hold my hands again

Work is not easy today.
Supposingly finished at 2pm but stayed till 6pm to finish up my Admin stuffs.
shits. P/T punchcards sheet..
Benson waited for me to go back for like 40 minutes.
haaa he caused my gastric, he disallow me to eat my lunch ! too saltish! damn it.~

will you still be mine ?
time will prove~

Suddenly thought of having a feast and a cup of ice chocolate.
Temptation kills cause it makes me gain weight!
I'm sick once again, voice fading away slowly...
cough and flu coming up to visit again, i hate to be sick but yet
i don't take care ;] CONTRADICTS but i don't bother anyway~

home home today. slept for like 19 hours!
i'm just too tired to think of anything or rather to miss anything cause i don't like the feeling
of missing someone who is never mine! ;]

别说我会留在路口不会走
爱你会直到最后
很想说有你是幸福的
很想说我的心是你的
很想说你真的误解了
很想说你真的忘记了
很想说会好好疼你的
很想说爱你是自由的
很想说你是否听见了
很想说我们可不可以复合

笑容没了距离有了快乐也走了
还是真心走了彼此不信任了
我终于懂了

Time passes so fast..
I can't even capture it while i just lose it right at the front of my eyes.
Perhaps perhaps it's fated and i left it all these while.

Whenever i tried to get closer, somehow or rather u're moving.
Might as well i move away, at least my pride is still there. ;]
I'm just a girl. Ain't as strong as what people might think of, so don't ever start when u know
u gonna hurt me in the end..

Let me know that u'll be the one taking care of me for my life, i'll smile to you and will walk the rest of my life with you...

I wanted a change so much so badly now, so whoever let me know there's any chance of changing of my job to another!! we're doing midnight change-over when Kenneth is tired. He just sleep on the floor while xiaohui use sensormatic just tag on his clothing. lols. xiaohui is super nonsense, can't stand her either but i love it!

I can't afford another broken heart.. I'll have a hard time to recover, mend it and i'll be yours forever

Felt much better...
Everything seems much more better after a long long day.

I'm always asking myself " why is this happening ? "
Perhaps i dont hold nor cherish? Or is the heaven making a fool out of me.
i wonders..


you're the most precious thing in me.

Your lies blinded me, i shouldn't have believe
nor shouldn't have stay. Perhaps all along u're lying.

Is it all you know what to do? I ain't a toy don't push me around!
Treat me like ur princess if u really does if not just freak out of my life.
Enough means enough..
Don't mislead me anymore, its fucking torturing me slowly!!

I wanna fly away from this place. How i wish, everything can be so perfect like i planned..
but seems like u're taking away all my happiness and belonging..
you're just trying very hard to makes my heart tears so much so badly, when i'm still on the verge of recovering.. Gradually u're taking away the smile that lingers on my face..


i promise i wont be blinded by your illusionary lies anymore..

i knew that something bound to happen..

people come and go, just like passer-by
are you one of the passer-by of mine? or someone who makes
my world with beautiful rainbows..
slowly i doubt my ability to see things clearly cause im blinded by those
illusionary talks from you..

get a life, move on. i'll try to be strong cause i know u'll never be mine.
;]

I'm still sick...
But i knew that colleagues is worry and care for me.
=) Alright i won't starve myself cause wanna diet ok?
Will eat on time cause i promise mum that.

No drinking for me ...
I don't wish to leave here so early at my young age ;]
giggles.
Tired for me today, Gastric starts after eating .
THANKS to benson? His fault to cause my gastric.

I made a promise to myself that i'll be strong even without you by my side . ;]
the way you move my heart...