♥ Thursday, August 27, 2009
Let me advertise a little for the event itself.
Venue: Paragon Atrium Basement 1 ( Early Learning Centre, ELC )
Date: 28th August 2009 - 6th September 2009
Events discount: 1 - 2 items @ 30% off
3 - 4 items @ 50% off
5 items and above @ 70% off
* While stocks last! Hurry!!!
I came back before the war begins from tomorrow, 28th august all the way till 6th September.It means I wouldn't be able to blog as it's another long long tiring week for me myself and my lovely warriors in Paragon.Please bless me with everything you people have (:I'll be so so happy.
Anyway, see my title for my blog entry.It meant alot a lot to me (:I know who is the one really cares about me, the one that really stand by me always.The one that truly loves me for who i am.However, the time isn't right, I'm still floating.Yes be it anything regarding the someone special.Whenever or whatever things happen. He still in my mind.Even when im shopping sees things which he might like it.I'll buy even i know i do not have the courage to give him.Hahaha! Don't say i waste money, i find it alright.Maybe one day i just pass everything to the someone special. Cause all the gifts i bought are all useful items okie.whatever, end of story.I'm hungry and famished ):Good bye!
On my way to work!
Pale me
Ms C and Sya sya (:
♥ Wednesday, August 26, 2009
I'LL BLOG REAL SOON !
LEAVING ON THE LITTLE COSY COACH (:
Be back in a week's time or so.
♥ Monday, August 24, 2009
This photo was actually months back, guessed its that time when i'm still with him.When i'm still so much in love so much happiness filled up my heart so much loves could be seen from my facial expression every minute (:Things changes, i changed i guessed.The only changes done was actually fell badly for him and makes him leave me totally.
I knew it's no longer possible for miracles to happen between me and himself already.I knew no matter what, things will remain like how it is.I knew there's nothing i can do anymore to have things back like before.It has been months already, I'm contented just to know he's happy without me (:Probably it's me didn't try to put in more effort that's why things become this way like now,Indirectly, i ruined my own happiness.I used to believe I'll be the most happiest woman cause I'd him that time.I used to realize my future is him.I thought this time round, I'll have my very own happiness which i longed for so long, however it's not.
Whatever i said now, no longer important.If there's a chance for me again, I'll never repeat mistakes that i shouldn't.Now i dislikes most at nights, especially those nights without stars hanging on the sky.I tends to be very fearful, I'm afraid of nightmares.The nightmares, the very same nightmares i'd for few months already.Every time, i woke up crying yet i couldn't do anything.Helplessly.I tried to convince myself to move on and step into another relationship.I can't bring myself to accept another cause i know it's totally impossible for me now.I know my heart well enough, I'm not being draggy towards him.Just that as long as i'm comfortable with myself not having anyone. Never be replaced? I'm trying to convince myself that someone will actually replaced his position in my heart itself, i did tried. I chosen to follow my heart rather than my brain.
Ms Brainy : Let him go, at least you'll move on to next relationship and be a lot happier than now.
Ms Hearty: Do what you really find best for your own happiness. If you believes that he'll still be the one, follow it. To love him, you don't mind being called the world's silliest girl.
Ms C : I'm exhausted, I just want to remain this way, though its no longer possible to be back (:
I'm contradicting myself, I know! Don't need anyone to remind me.
If not I might find you people, ANNOYING.
Whatever it is, now is what i want to rant.
Not pointing fingers at anyone.
He left me cause i changed.
I ruined it.
He's not in the wrong, i am (:
So what if i regret? I can't do anything.
I'll be fine, so fine so fine (:
For now, I really wants to treat him like a very good friend.
Will it still be possible?
I'm starting to doubt even myself.
Hahaha!
Candy being a nuisance now?
I am.
Anyway, the song lyrics below is very meaningful. This song Vincent sent it to me (: Thanks Vincent, its nice the song (:
Let me just blessed all lovely couples or lovebirds or newly weds or even married couples. I hereby sincerely wish that happiness be with you people (:
Title : 为什么你要离开我 ( Why do you have to leave me )你说我不必难过坚强是给你最好的礼物忍住眼泪想说声音却已颤抖真的很想把你挽留为什么你要离开我是不是我又做错了什么我们在一起经历了那么多难道你已不爱我心好痛你要离开我是不是我付出的不够多曾经爱得那么真都付出所有到最后还是我一个我没有把握你说我不必难过坚强是给你最好的礼物忍住眼泪想说声音却已颤抖真的很想把你挽留为什么你要离开我是不是我又做错了什么我们在一起经历了那么多难道你已不爱我心好痛你要离开我是不是我付出的不够多曾经爱得那么真都付出所有到最后还是我一个我没有把握你说过你只属于我现在你却对我说我们没有结果幸福来得太快来不急琢磨原来那只是一场梦为什么你要离开我是不是我又做错了什么我们在一起经历了那么多难道你已不爱我没有我你会不会说其实你还一直深爱着我原来所谓的爱情是这样脆弱现在只好安慰自己说别太过执着现在学会了放手默默接受你作出的决定因为我相信你有你的原因我会埋藏这个结局怀念着你
♥ Sunday, August 23, 2009
Awful day today!
So much happen, too much emotional issues at work.
Everyone's moral is uber low no matter how i tried or even Rany tried to boost up the morale.
Anyway we just smile and hope everything will be real back to normal.
I'm like so reluctant to work today.
No idea why either, probably due to the emotional things happening around the store.
Arghs!
Terrible, it really ruins my mood!
I feel like going home so badly now.
hahahas!
Was telling Vincent what happen and he was like laughing out so loudly ):
Hahahas!
Tomorrow is another long day for me.
Tonight i'd to do my chores before going bed and waking up like 630am tml!
God bless.
hopefully everything will be fine after tomorrow (:
With loves (:
My Secret runaway on 22nd august
My reflection!
My Boo (:
Indulges
Ms Fat C !
♥ Friday, August 21, 2009
Heavy downpour when i reached Orchard itself.
Terrible. My jeans half soaked with water!
Uncomfortable and aint feeling at my best today.
Felt a little happier as someone finally came back like missing totally for 2 days! HAHAHA
grumble grumble grumble ):
It's okie as long as he's fine now.
nothing else matters (:
Short posts lately.
Im tired.
Cravings for Thai Express !
Little girl in red
BIG FISH!
♥ Thursday, August 20, 2009
Lately been these way, probably due to the accident on sunday itself makes me right leg feels aching every other minute of standing.
Next week onwards gonna be very very busy with work, no time for chilling. No time for nightlife, no time for tanning session over at Sentosa !
I'm so gonna miss out so much so much itself.
Big big sigh!
Hopefully late September I can have a short runaway from Singapore with my best buddy cardi !
Thats all for today..
See below for my unglam photos! (:
Sya sya and myself in spects
On our way out for lunch~
Wee pose pose
sleezy!
Funny poses
Lastly my cute sya sya! (:
♥ Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Let me flash back some of the events that happens to me.16th August 2009
It's Daddy's birthday ♥I actually requested a morning shift as they wanted to dine together.Went back home around 5 plus, rested awhile and washed up headed down to Anchor Point, 周庄 for dinner together with Daddy, Wayne, Elyse and Micky little brother via comfy car (:During the car journey was busy snapping self shots as usual, then i actually dragged Micky into the picture like always.
Ordered some dishes like sprinkled salted pepper tofu, 3 cup chicken (三杯鸡), spinach with salted egg♥♥♥, Chilli crab with bun(辣椒螃蟹与馒头), garlie prawn(蒜头虾), Peking Duck(北京鸭) and also using the remains of 北京鸭 to fry noodles (:Service was superb over at the restaurant itself. Service rated 4.5 Stars !Anyway the food is good and total price of what we've ordered is $100 bucks! (: (: (:
Left the restaurant with bloated stomach and actually bought take aways from dessert store !Home sweet home and it's pouring heavily after we reached back home awhile.Rushed over to buy birthday cake for daddy together with Ms J itself.Happy birthday to you happy birthday to you happy birthday happy birthday ~ Happy Birthday to you! Coffee Cake for Daddy (:That's how he spent his birthday with us.This year without Mummy celebrating with us ):I MISS MUMMY !I'm so gonna meet her during Sept real soon.
17th August 2009Met up with my dearest brother Nut ♥♥♥ !Over at Far East plaza instead of me rushing down to airport to pick him up initially.Brings him to Far East Plaza Level 5 to have his supposingly late lunch however its his late breakfast!Can you imagine he ordered 1 Oyster sauce Chicken rice, 1 bowl of Curry Chicken & 1 plate of seafood Horfun. Oh amazing har?He was grumping saying he ate a little over too much.I was like laughing at him non stop.We strolled around Far East plaza as he actually wanna get those metal belt and leather jacket.However it's a little over pricey, so we sat outside KFC and chatted.Got him a can of beer as he already used to it when he's at Norway for some times.He can't finish it and i drank it on his behalf as he already super red!So cute ah!Then we cabbed to Changi Airport Terminal one.>br>Nut brother actually very exhausted, we went to viewing hall however unable to view as it's under renovation.We sat on the floor as it's more comfortable and he lied down on the floor and dozed off.That very moment, my mind starts to wander off like again?very normal i know..Was texting with my buddy, Cardi to keep my mind staying there.
Then bid goodbye to my dearest brother as he chose to go into the plane earlier so that i could go back earlier.
Trained back from Tanan Merah and received a message from Nson asking for supper!Called up Ms J to meet me up over at Chinese garden as Nson is picking us up over at Chinese garden station.Had his desired frog leg porridge(田鸡粥) at Jurong West Ave 1 (: (: (:After that, home sweet home!Thanks Nson for the treat though he always call me Aunty.Yes i'm so gonna tarnish his reputation everywhere ha ha ha ! Who ask him refuse to give me that cute bee! (: (: (:That's what happening lately for that two days.
18th August 2009 Headed back work.Today don't really have the mood to work at all.Probably due to some issues.Arghs~I hate it when my mood at work turns so bad.Home sweet home after work.The only enjoyable thing today is working together with Gil and Love!That's all~
Events : Daddy's birthday 16th August 2009
Myself in the car on the way there
Spot me? Spot Elyse, Spot Micky brother? (:
周庄 @ Anchor Point!
Beautiful lighting 
Tofu @ $4
3 cup chicken 三杯鸡 !
Spinach with salted egg ♥♥♥
Garlie prawn 蒜头虾
Chilli crab with bun 辣椒螃蟹与馒头
Pekking Duck 北京鸭
北京鸭 noodles!
Ignore my clothes ! Casual that day!
Ms C and Elyse!
Micky little brother!
Wayne and Micky
Micky and Daddy
♥
Woke up like around 10am or so..Saw a message from sya regarding to lunch together at work.I just replied " Okie time~ " In my half conscious mode.Prepared for work, bus-ed over.Not knowing why still my right leg still hurts so much.Thanks to that accident!
Received Gil's call saying about something and i told him i'm already on my way in the bus.Saw Gil the first thing i asked was " Got buy anything?! " (:(:(:He said he didnt.Usual i got like disappointed however he did okie!Nice nice Gilbert~He bought us some dtied mango which is so so nice and tastes so so so so different from Singapore's ones.Hahaha! I finished 1 packet all by myself.* glutton candy~
Today a little tired to work, my leg aches badly which cause me being temperamental today.work work work till closing then home sweet home via train.Met Ms J for my dinner and headed home after that.Im like so so tired can?Today feeling a little better than yesterday.No emotions, very neutral today.Prolly due to the same old routine every other day?Terrible...I'll blog next time regarding my Daddy's birthday celebration and the monday which i got off on 17th that i met up with my dearesttttt brother over at Far East and towards Airport (:Good nights
♥ Tuesday, August 18, 2009
盼不到我爱的人我知道我愿意再等疼不了爱我的人片刻柔情它骗不了人
我不是无情的人却将你伤的最深我不忍我不能别再认真忘了我的人
离不开我爱的人我知道爱需要缘分放不下爱我的人因为了解他多么认真
为什么最真的心 碰不到最好的人我不问我不能拥在怀中直到他变冷爱我的人为我痴心不悔我却为我爱的人甘心一生伤悲在乎的人始终不对谁对谁不必虚伪
爱我的人为我付出一切我却为我爱的人流泪狂乱心碎爱与被爱同样受罪为什么不懂拒绝痴情的包围
离不开我爱的人我知道爱需要缘分放不下爱我的人 因为了解他多么认真为什么最真的心 碰不到最好的人我不问我不能拥在怀中直到他变冷
爱我的人为我痴心不悔我却为我爱的人甘心一生伤悲在乎的人始终不对谁对谁不必虚伪爱我的人为我付出一切我却为我爱的人流泪狂乱心碎爱与被爱同样受罪为什么不懂拒绝 痴情的包围
Oveheard this song from someone in airport while waiting for the flight itself.It's a very old song however it's very meaningful.Somehow when i listens to this song quietly, as if it's singing from my deepest heart itself.Direct translate of the song title will be " the person i love, and the person that loves me " Song name is my title for this entry.
Anyway i know tons and million asking me if i could move on.I already did, moved on with my life cause i know this is what that person really wish for.I moved on doesn't mean i'll be able to accept the facts right?& also accept anyone now. I won't and I don't wish to.Doubt that it's a need for someone beside me labelled my boyfriend.I don't want when i starts to believe in things, the person leaves me for another reason.2nd time i had this blow, after the 1st i thought i wouldn't have to go through it like 2nd time.However i still have to go through it all over again for the 2nd time.
Spare a thought of how i feel at times.I can be as vulnerable as what others may think i am.I will also be exhausted by all these.I just want to stay this way, yes its this way.My heart fully occupied, no more space for anyone like now?I don't wish to face any relationship at any moment.
I know..Everyone says " been months" , " why still hanging there? "You people ain't me.Don't pretend that you knew me in out.I'm this way, i really put in my best.I want to be this way not asking anything from him or whatsoever.I dont want when one day i really let go, thinking back that i actually regretted cause i didn't actually tried. I tried,,,to love him with everythingto be with him.to be myself when im with him.to make myself leave as i'd made mistakesnot to cry not to let him feel that i'm his bad choice.not to make him thinks all i does is cry.not to allow anyone to say it's his fault.
It's me, i ruin my own happiness.I deserved it.Let me feel wasted here for this moment.I know i'll be fine after a rest later.That's all.Good night
♥ Saturday, August 15, 2009
What will you be doing if you're super lazy to work?I start camwhoring non stop while im inside the storeroom!hahaha~ Pardon me, its always been this way. No changes (:
Not knowing why, probably Rany is back.That's why i seems a little laid back now. I wanna rest! Yes, rest is the main word.Anyway don't ask if i'm clubbing lately, NO im not (:I've plan to go for a healthy lifestyle, like 'duh'~Hopefully it comes true.I need need need to slim down, i'm on my diet plans now.So lovely friends and Ms J as well as lovely colleagues stop feeding me with food after food.No wonder i grew so much fatter lately ):
An hour more to knock off.I'll be meeting Ms J like AGAIN!?I'm ?her? girlfriend (:That's all.It's SATURDAY! Those who's partying, enjoy ya!I'm heading home after dindin to SLEEP~God~ Bye~
same pose, different decade
a naughty twist!
sya sya and myself (:
I like this
dim lighting
face squeezed
Big smile!
