I'm trying so hard, so hard of everything...

Is the only option left for sure.

Oh ya, head out to JB 1 day trip with lovelies!

At first to meet up with Xiping baby at Marsiling station for breakfast and that muddle head actually left house without her passport!

Then she head back and take her passport and meet me.

Walked over for breakfast and Robin joined us.

Everyone was late, which was rather expected it.

Inessabelle, Guoyang, Robin, Cheryl, Jeffrey, Szekee, Xi Ping, Siti, Fifi and myself.

Headed our way to custom.

Was afraid that there will be jam, however it seems a smooth trip to KSL city with a little help of the walkie talkie!

Start our day at JB with lunch over at Tea Garden!

& shopping shopping shopping!

Was rather emo though, so walked alone instead of sticking together with the girls...

decided to watch movie, Super 8.

not my type of show though... Then some mis-communication and ended up dinner only after 9pm!

Seafood dinner... After that Siti and Fifi head back to Singapore while the rest of us head to massage!~ WOO~

refreshing 1 hour full body massage (:

Board Robin's car instead after the massage as we going different route...

Robin sent me home together with Guoyang.

So sweet right? Btw, Robin stays in Aljunied and Guoyang stays at Bedok?

Oh ya, bought 2 short dress!

Thanks Guoyang and Robin for helping me to choose the 2nd dress color!

That's all...

I miss you, and now I know

that your papa is doing good, not knowing from you but directly from your papa...

contented.

Will visit uncle more provided it doesn't make my day worst

His dad is working near me.

Though I got this info at a slip of my friend's mouth which she was asked to keep it away from me.

When I heard it, everything flashes back.

Was eating half way, suddenly my heart sank and my tears just couldn't hold back.

I'm weak, I thought I could let go.

I thought I am strong enough to say it's okay it's over

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I'm wrong totally

He returned everything, other than the ring and photoframe.

Mel handed me everything and I broke down in front of him.

I guessed I shouldn't keep hoping as he didn't even wanna meet me to return however asked his buddy to pass to me.

Out of convenient or what? I'm not sure and do not want to prompt any further

The lemon squeezed heart, I got no choice to move on and stop crying

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I'll keep my promise.. I know it's silly however I feels that it's worth it..

Love him is to let him go...

Is that a sign?

I'm kind of afraid that one day I'll get used of those days without you.

Those days that my mind actually do not have you anymore.

I know I am contradicting myself, I'm trying so hard to let go so hard to move on so hard to force myself not to think of you anymore.

Yet here I am, afraid of you getting out of my mind so much.

Probably, is just so hard to let it go.

I miss you still

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Home all alone.

Everyone not home, for the next few days.

Prays hard!

Yes, back to drinking life.

I need to be indulges in nightlife, used to be my life like everyday.

Now trying to get back those life, the life I used to lead happily (:

I'm just trying to avoid reality, at least I'm happier

It's not about me not letting go, is finding it hard to when I actually stops those good memories that flashes back in my memory lane.

It makes it hard to let it go

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Quarreled with dad again,

somehow had enough of it...

I don't wanna be a good daughter anymore.

Don't blame me for that, I'm being forced to.

Thanks