♥ Saturday, January 29, 2011
Doubts, interrogation, questions.
How you wants me to believe in everything is gonna be alright now?
All I can blames is on myself for even hope that things will be alright.
Hidden intention being exposed yet I need to pretend that I didn't know anything.
I'm exhausted and I wanna cry so badly yet I couldn't.
Drinks anyone?
I need to be alright...
Sighs
♥ Thursday, January 20, 2011
Xiping: You are photogenic!
Myself: So you are saying I'm ugly!
Zzz !
I wanna have my own children, my very own family... I ain't asking too much either...
♥ Tuesday, January 18, 2011
Everything seems not right either.
God mummy sudden passed away, i'm handling it alone.
Mind went blank after that, lost of appetite.. I'm going it through alone.
Lost the will of building future and dreams due to cold replies. I'm at it alone.
Probably, marriage isn't my type of things to do (:
No longer building big dreams, not wanting to deceive myself in dreams.
I need to be realistic.
I don't see my future, how could I even build dreams?
I gets restless and tired.
I ain't perfect, and never will I be perfect.
Bye.
♥ Sunday, January 16, 2011
Received phone call from Mum on 15th Jan to ask me to cancel off all appointments for the day.
God mummy passed away.
Depression leads to her decision of leaving this reality world...
I cried on my way there which I couldn't control either.
Realized I ain't strong to handle setbacks like these.
I never want to handle and never want it to happen either.
Stayed at the wake throughout the night without sleeping a wink at all.
The feeling no one will understand unless those who really sincerely cares for her.
I'd learnt, to cherish every single one in my life.
God mummy, rest in peace.
&
I love you
♥ Saturday, January 1, 2011
I wanna be a better person
I wanna strive hard for my career
I wanna everyone around me to be healthy and lovable just like me
I wanna do so much things!
ta ta!
