♥ Memories...

♥ Friday, May 30, 2008

My immune system getting weaker and weaker each day.
too much too much of things to handle.
gastric acts up for no reason again, awws.
didn't sleep well yesterday, couple of times woke up screaming.
nightmares is real scary, please anyone? sleeping pills ! (:

what's the worst thing that can have happen?
firstly, alone in the store.
secondly, i'm half-blind, i left my glasses at home.
thirdly, gastric simply refuse to go away.
see how muddle-head can i be?
full shift full shift. the thought of it chills my spine.
oh ya, probably there'll be a senior coming in next week.
hopefully, he don't go mia like what the ~~previous~~ did.
i'm uber sleepy without glasses, some kind soul please get my glasses back .__.

我很愿意把心快递给你, 你让我把对爱的谜变成决心.
我知道自己很爱你

at 13:00

♥

okay finally im back here for photos.
i'm just uber tired these days.
gastric acts up for no reason that almost killed me in the morning, unable
to take mc as no onecover my shift at all.
reach store around 1130am? i think, i look super horrible. PALE face .__.

work and work and work.
home sweet home! i'm tired. uberrr (:
please be nice ok? *awww so sweet*

chocolate overload and sweet cream and cookies (: GELARE

sweet lovey (:

bus-ed, we fell asleep though!

big twist by baobei (:

big twist in love

aww so sweet! ((((:

谢谢你, 我很感动. 就像棉花糖那样甜蜜.

at 00:45

♥ Wednesday, May 28, 2008

downpour. ruins my plan of going swimming.
double sighs! it's even worst when the heavy rain is accompanied by the scary thunder sound.

aww the rain gonna last for like H O U R S okay?
i'm so listless! i shall blog once i get enough rest later.
regarding my meeting with BAOBEIFENNY.
haha.
tired ._.

相思豆 o

at 14:13

♥ Monday, May 26, 2008

picture shows my current mood.
i'm so uber tired today, blues always here. always here when its monday.
im always working on monday, duhs.
can i sleep late on monday? ._.

seems like everything is moving so slow today.
because it's M O N D A Y.
i can't hold my eyes open any longer, please i need some rest on mondays.
oh yah, ming told me there's a new store manager appear out of nowhere at forum this morning.
bossing around like some mad woman that just released from some didoo places.
i love candy~ candy candy candy!
i've made some changes to ......

i love cindy cindy cindy! haha!
tomorrow is another no-no day.
TUESDAY, big sigh!
meeting again, i hate going meeting.
i find it a nuisance to go there, reporting sales; explaining why sales so low?
argh! obviously its the crowd, but every week must report the same thing?
tiring like hell.
slowly find it silly to work with these people.
money please drop from the sky ._.
i promised won't overspent this coming payday..
ciaos. reach home then blog (:

at 14:10

♥ Sunday, May 25, 2008

Asking how much i love you, aww!
tons and million.
ILOVEFENNY! 25th May (:
and she loves me.

now working, i'm a little cranky today.
ate twice yongtauhu. uhh o:
tomorrow is another full shift day, hopefully tomorrow things get better!
pls pls no more adding on injuries due to work.
my knee is full of bruise, thanks to all knocking and my clumsiness!
blog more when i reach hm!

你微笑但是旁边的人不是我,我很不想让你找到离开的理由.
我每天假装开心害怕你离去,可不可以忍心求求你不要去.
难道我没有权利说我不愿意
其实我非常爱你不想失去你,藏在我心里最后一句其实还爱你.

at 19:20

♥ Friday, May 23, 2008

i hurt my own finger while working yesterday though im off yesterday ._.
my tiny weeny finger o:
today almost got knocked down by a cab driver, wasn't paying attention to anything.
kind of in a daze, * floating *

today im feeling utterly restless, do not know why either.
perhaps didn't get to sleep well these days.
ponders and wonders!!
please please koffeeeeeeee come back to me.
the only thing that keeps me alive and awake is my sweetest ipod.

tomorrow is my off day and so is saturday.
something big happening tmr! (:
ask me and i'll tell you.
dindin / supper with my silly jennifer later, another chatting session!
whoops!

okay as promised, photos to be up !
super utterly overdues.

saw the bruise? (:

meeting day :

sweet lovely. juanna and myself

she loves strawberries

we're being bubbly

the cream on face, thanks to reynan!

see what i've done to her?

day out with loveeeeee

glamour

im stoning.

天使也笑我爱你爱得太傻最后被爱惩罚

你对我说一切都是谎言

at 01:04

♥ Wednesday, May 21, 2008

boy meets girl
girl trusted boy
promises were made
never to leave her alone
in every where she goes
there will be him

beautiful love story?
some says in every start of a relationship
it will be very sweet
boy told girl
it will be sweet through out
but
time changes all
soon in girl’s heart
she could never rely on guy
for he stopped listening and caring
in every single night
she cries alone as
she misses him.
isn't that kind of true? (: im no longer silly like how i used to.

utterly expiry photos below.
i'm so reluctant to post up photos recently, give me more time.
more photos will be up, i promised.
tired myself out is the best therapy for insomnia, as long as i'm sleepy.
somehow i feel, things will get better after all dingdong things that happen.
shall blog once im back home.
ciaos o:

supposingly to be artistic ._. i love my photographer o:

isn't that gorgeous?

at 12:54

♥ Monday, May 19, 2008

春天慢慢一点点发芽
快乐开始都有了想像
城市光合作用的模样
幸福开始组装
把这首歌送给老婆刘昱言
夜里满园的茉莉花香
月光洒落看不见忧伤
旋转木马前那个广场
爱情开始滋长

想你有时会缺氧
嘴角不自觉上扬
这是不是幸福的现象
胸口微微的发烫
想你有时会缺氧
脸红呼吸不正常
这是不是幸福的症状
不知不觉又缺氧

夜里满园的茉莉花香
月光洒落看不见忧伤
旋转木马前那个广场
爱情开始滋长
想你有时会缺氧
为何呼息不正常
这是不是幸福的症状
不知不觉又缺氧

无法移动的梦想
就算没有人鼓掌
我也不会受伤
不会稀释的信仰
心穿越砖墙在你的身旁
想你有时会缺氧
嘴角不自觉上扬
这是不是幸福的症状
胸口微微的发烫
为何呼息不正常
不知不觉又缺氧

at 17:55

♥

i'm a happy woman!
got my ipod nano in pink thanks sweetest! (:

hoi~ today is vesak day, everyone is off.
resting at home, yet im at work.
freezing to death, bored to death, eat yongtauhu till my last breath.
tomorrow will be another bored day, going to meeting in the morning.
kind of hate tuesday at times, meeting and nonstop of naggings. shut please?
im sick! im sick! sick on my mind! sick in my tiny weeny heart.
love me love me say that you love me ~
i wanna hold your hand till the end.
the happiest moment is when you merely say you miss me.
how i wish the moment could stop at that very moment!
i'm so into sentimental songs recently. please someone, be sweet. send me corrine may song!
hoho!

okay im still working, i wanna blog up my photos.
my nonsense but seems like my mind is so tired.
i wanna gossip, i wanna drink coffee, i wanna sleep, i wanna see stars, i wanna go to the beach, i wanna be your superwoman.

what hurts the most
is being so close, having so much to say
and watching you walked away.
its hard to force a smile when seeing everyone on the road.
i pretend im okay (:

at 17:30

♥

- ღpeifenn ; says:
ILOVEYING
caиdy - i'll be your lil' sweety says:
ILOVEFENNY <3

ain't she being sweet?
i shall blog tomorrow! i'm sleepy, very very sleepy.
oh yeah.
happy birthday to the most beautiful juanna and vincent (:

at 01:12

♥ Sunday, May 18, 2008

things just don't go the way i want it to be.
i just wanna be happy..
is it so hard?
once i promised, to be happy as always.
it's so hard? pretending to be happy when im tearing deeply inside
shall blog once the mood is back.

at 14:05

♥ Friday, May 16, 2008

wooden art easel, wooden play table and chair and wooden bookshelves.
thanks a million to this lovely customer (:
increases my sales by purchasing those items i've named, but worst part is...
she didn't drive, she's carrying her baby boy and my store's trolley is faulty AND
mira is not around, darren went for break.
._.
mira came back store, and i called up darren if he's ok that he come back awhile to carry those heavy items to taxi stand for the customer but he just say no to me and expect customer to wait for 1 hour after his break! what the ... so up to no choice,
i carried down item by item down for customer as its so so so heavy!
panting nonstop, heartbeat almost stop too!!
when she's about to board the cab, she stuffed 10 dollar to me.
i went blank on the spot and refuse to take it, but she shut the door and say thanks to me..
anyway she's a very nice japanese lady (:

afterall, i love this job though i've the thoughts of leaving!
saw my wrist is cut by the boxes of product.
it hurt though.
i'm sleepy, sleepy little muddle-head o:

at 19:50

♥ Thursday, May 15, 2008

i'm not a girl, not yet a woman.
i love it when it rains.
i love it when you say dont cry.
i love it when things turn out so beautifully.
i love when you bring me out.
i love it when you insist i go for my lunch, dinner etc.
i love gazing stars at the darkest night with you.
i love the way you teased me.
i love everything of everything. (:
contented

i've beautiful life,
with beautiful sweet lovelies around me, peifen baobei, yue and jennifer (:
things become so beautiful when you're around.
i promised, to be better.

i love you 20,000 ok?

at 14:07

♥ Wednesday, May 14, 2008

retail therapy today.
was kind of mood swinging in the morning.
i wasn't paying any attention on the things i do, toys just fell hard on me.

bought another two new pair of shoes, some nailarts, polish.
wanna buy perfume, but not in the mood.
i shall post when im free.

或许你以为把这一座城市抛开
就可以纠结伤害
却不明白
我需要你的爱不管多少阻碍
不求什么未来不管命运会怎么安排
我会用眼泪洗去所有的不堪
狠狠地把心痛了断
深深地把一切重来

别让那些谎言把爱给活埋
当心碎成一块一块
当爱碎曾一断一断
我会等待你的爱
你将那些谎言把爱给活埋

at 20:59

♥ Monday, May 12, 2008

Ipod Nano in pink !
i'm heading towards this.
when when can i ever buy it.
my current creative mp3 is dying on me every now and then,
please i need some music to perk me up!

i'm way too sleepy now, utterly need some rest.
i'm teething :
no appetite for anything! buy me some sweets.
sleepy-muddlehead

at 19:19

♥

i'm silly.
i'm clumsy.
i never feel that you're mine.
but please don't name me as stupid, cause i aint (:

tmr meeting up with lovelies.
baobei, yue, hj and zy (:
that would be din din session, catch up soon!

谢谢你, 家俊 o:

at 15:30

♥ Saturday, May 10, 2008

i gets so cranky today.
swingy of mood, at a moment im being so hyper.
the very next moment, i'm like so utterly sleepy!

Corrine may is new love, i've been playing her cd again and over again!
beautiful seed, five loaves and two fishes, leaving, scars, city of angel is a must to listen everyday, every single moment.
piano is ever sweetest love!
tulip is utterly pretty.
i've seen the worst and feel the most beautiful in my life.
i'm contented

Corrine may - leaving
There's a comfort in this darkness, a familiar road.
though i know that you are no good for me.
you're a fake alibi, you hypnotize and
you keep tempting me to throw away eternity

Time to wakeup and shake up.
you've kept me right under your spell for too long.
your promise is empty, go dig your claw in somebody else
cause it wont be me.

I'm leaving~, leaving this path behind.
Don't need your sympathy.
I'm leaving, don't try to change my mind.
I'm leaving this path behind.

Shake my faith, you're never going to break me.
take my strength, you're never going to make me.
turn my back away from the truth.
I wont play your games, i'm nobody's fool

at 19:14

♥ Friday, May 9, 2008

came across something which is so beautiful.

the most beautiful little lovey (:

what's the most beautiful thing you've ever come across?

simply loves wedding, something which is so beautiful and blissful.

the new life that came to the world, its so beautiful.

an old couple that holds their hand tightly, strolling in the garden. so beautiful (:

i browse through and i saw this. (:

at 17:09

♥ Thursday, May 8, 2008

i wanna be a super woman!

the one that always so strong infront of everyone,

the one that loves to be happy.

shall blog one day when there's more happening things happen to me this little superwoman [:

oh yah, please remind me to take everything home.

i left my makeup pouch in the store, my earpiece!

one day i gonna leave myself there. ._.

muddle-sleepyhead! o:

at 23:26

♥

When You Divorce Me, Carry Me Out in Your Arms

On my wedding day, I carried my wife in my arms. The bridal car stopped in front of our one-room flat. Mybuddies insisted that I carry her out of the car in my arms. So I carried her into our home. She was then plumpand shy. I was a strong and happy bridegroom. This was the scene ten years ago.

The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water: we had a kid; I went into business and tried to make more money. When the assets were steadily increasing, the affection between us seemed to ebb. She was a civil servant. Everymorning we left home together and got home almost at the same time. Our kid was studying in a boardingschool. Our marriage life seemed to be enviably happy. But the calm life was more likely to be affected byunpredictable changes.

Dew came into my life. It was a sunny day. I stood on a spacious balcony. Dew hugged me from behind. My heart once again was immersed in her stream of love. This was the apartment I bought for her. Dew said, you are the kind of man who best draws girls' eyeballs. Her words suddenly reminded me of my wife. When we were just married, my wife said, Men like you, once successful, will be very attractive to girls. Thinking of this, I became somewhat hesitant. I knew I had betrayed my wife. But I couldn't help doing so. I moved Dew's hands aside and said you go to select some furniture, O.K.? I've got something to do in the company. Obviously she was unhappy, because I had promised to do it together with her. At the moment, the idea of divorce became clearer in my mind although it used to be something impossible to me.

However, I found it rather difficult to tell my wife about it. No matter how mildly I mentioned it to her, she would be deeply hurt. Honestly, she was a good wife. Every evening she was busy preparing dinner. I was sitting in front of the TV. The dinner was ready soon. Then we watched TV together. Or, I was lounging before the computer, visualizing Dew's body. This was the means of my entertainment. One day I said to her in a slightly joking way, suppose we divorce, what will you do? She stared at me for a few seconds without a word. Apparently she believed that divorce was something too far away from her. I couldn't imagine how she would react once she got to know I was serious.

When my wife went to my office, Dew had just stepped out. Almost all the staff looked at my wife with a sympathetic eye and tried to hide something while talking to her. She seemed to have got some hint. She gently smiled at my subordinates. But I read some hurt in her eyes. Once again, Dew said to me, He Ning, divorce her, O.K.? Then we live together. I nodded. I knew I could not hesitate any more.

When my wife served the last dish, I held her hand. I've got something to tell you, I said. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the serious topic calmly. She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I'm serious. I avoided her question. This so-called answer made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer, because my heart had gone to Dew. With a deep sense of guilt,

I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. I felt a pain in my heart. The woman who had been living ten years with me would become a stranger one day. But I could not take back what I had said. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer. Late that night, I came back home after entertaining my clients. I saw her writing something at the table. I fall asleep fast. When I woke up, I found she was still there. I turned over and was asleep again. She brought up her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but I was supposed to give her one month s time before divorce, and in the month's time we must live as normal a life as possible. Her reason was simple: our son would finish his summer vacation a month later and she didn't want him to see our marriage was broken.

Memory is a way of holding onto the things you love, the things you are, the things you never want to lose.She passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me, He Ning, do you still remember how I entered our bridal room on the wedding day? This question suddenly brought back all those wonderful memories to me. I nodded and said, I remember. You carried me in your arms, she continued, so, I have a requirement, that is, you carry me out in your arms on the day when we divorce. From now to the end of this month, you must carry me out from the bedroom to the door every morning. I accepted with a smile.

I knew she missed those sweet days and wished to end her marriage romantically. I told Dew about my wife s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she does, she has to face the result of divorce, she said scornfully. Her words more or less made me feel uncomfortable. My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. We even treated each other as a stranger. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly, Let us start from today, don't tell our son. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset.

I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for a bus, I drove to the office. On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this intimate woman carefully for a long time. I found she was not young any more. There were some fine wrinkles on her face. On the third day, she whispered to me, the outside garden is being demolished. Be careful when you pass there.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I seemed to feel that we were still an intimate couple and I was holding my sweetheart in my arms. The visualization of Dew became vague. On the fifth and sixth day, she kept reminding me something, such as, where she put the ironed shirts, I should be careful while cooking, etc. I nodded. The sense of intimacy was even stronger. I didn't tell Dew about this. I felt it was easier to carry her. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. I said to her, It seems not difficult to carry you now.

She was picking her dresses. I was waiting to carry her out. She tried quite a few but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I smiled. But I suddenly realized that it was because she was thinner that I could carry her more easily, not because I was stronger. I knew she had buried all the bitterness in her heart. Again, I felt a sense of pain. Subconsciously I reached out a hand to touch her head. Our son came in at the moment. Dad, it's time to carry mum out. He said. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had been an essential part of his life. She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face because I was afraid I would change my mind at the last minute. I held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly, as if we came back to our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. She said, actually I hope you will hold me in your arms until we are old. I held her tightly and said, both you and I didn't notice that our life lacked intimacy. I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my decision. I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door. I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I won't divorce. I'm serious. She looked at me, astonished. The she touched my forehead. You got no fever. She said. I moved her hand off my head.

Sorry, Dew, I said, I can only say sorry to you, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of life, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I understand that since I carried her into the home, she gave birth to our child, I am supposed to hold her until I am old. So I have to say sorry to you. Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears.

I walked downstairs and drove to the office. When I passed the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet for my wife which was her favorite. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until we are old.Memory is a way of holding onto the things you love, the things you are, the things you never want to lose.

If you do happen to finish reading this passage, you'll find that it's really touching.Marriage is like the vast sea, no boundaries .. so beyond reach

at 15:53

♥ Tuesday, May 6, 2008

i'm a super happy woman today.
meeting as usual in the morning!
town with loves [:
roaming and strolling at orchard though my feet hurts by my new shoe! ):
i'm so tired! shall let photos show how i enjoy myself!

bought myself a crumpler bag [: It's in grey, easier to match for all my clothing thats in shocking colours! baobei was saying " baobei the bag look so huge on you!"
myself : " but i think im so cute with it lar! hohoho! P: "
baobei : " roll eyes ~.~ "
so i just grabbed that bag and off i go like a happy woman!
lunch at swensen with loves!
never fails to make me laugh!

i've seen through everything of you

down the road

MY CRUMPLER! [:

this is reynan, thats how i look when im at work

greatest leisure

紧张你的是我

为你失眠的是我

每个夜里陪你回家的人

永远不是我

夜空灿烂的烟火一瞬间的挥霍

最后伴着心中的落寞慢慢的坠落

我们的距离有那么多

时空挑战着执著

你的幸福平静美丽的生活

我不敢去打破

天使也笑我爱你爱得太傻

最后被爱惩罚

古堡里爱情的神话

荒谬的像笑话

天使也笑我爱你爱得太傻

傻得还是放不下

每时每刻每分每秒的牵挂

躲在爱情的角落渐渐升华

在此刻没结果

我到底还在奢望什么

爱的对与错

爱的风雨火

有谁来告诉我

at 23:52

♥ Monday, May 5, 2008

i'm starting to lose the ability to blog.
im so tired, blog when i want to.
Next post would be..
"what will my superhero look like? "

爱我的人为我痴心不悔
我却为我爱的人甘心一生伤悲
在乎的人始终不对
谁对谁不必虚伪
爱我的人为我付出一切
我却为我爱的人流泪狂乱心碎
爱与被爱同样受罪
为什么不懂拒绝痴情的包围

离不开我爱的人
我知道爱需要缘分
放不下爱我的人因为了解他多么认真
为什么最真的心碰不到最好的人

at 13:40

♥ Friday, May 2, 2008

okay finally got the urge to blog something.

chilling session with baobei fen, yue and fen's bf [:

was at causeway point, roaming around.

thought of getting some clothes, or a new slipper but seems like nothing catches my attention to it..

lunch-ed at junction, merely bought one bowl of black chicken herbal soup!

baobei and bf so sweet but got teased by me and yue hoho!

but im always the one ended got bullied back by fen ._.

so i merely say something like " hey can tame your gf? especially her hands "
i got more bashing by then...

Please go "peifen" to see more of her ranting, she gonna be like " CLEVER BAOBEI LAR " hehee!

i love chatting session with the both of them, it makes my day a special one!