♥ Memories...

♥ Sunday, February 28, 2010

Out dinner with Dad along with Minky, ah boy, Winnie and her mum...
Most Important Person - Ah gong and ah ma!
Shall let photos do all talkings.

Pardon those photos of mine, not feeling very well and eyes are all swell up so i need to do faces to cover it...

in the car on the way to Jalan Besar

Oh!?

The signature pose

Grin with small teethy

Messy hair, swollen eyes

Saw ah boy!?

umms!

Kiss pls?! HAHAHA

swollen eyes

twist!

At Lai Fa Coffeeshop?

First two dishes :D

Sambal Belacan Fried Fish, the signature dish

Eggy

Seacucumber with scallops and vegetables

some egg tofu ?

Ah ma and Ah gong

Ah boy. the one that passed me virus ._.

A pose since I'm not eating

Ah ma, Ah gong and Daddy

I'm so free to take photos cause I didn't really eat anything there.

No appetite and wasn't feeling real good at all...

That's all...

at 21:02

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When I sees you turn your back at me and walked away
my heart feels the squeeze and my tears rolled down my cheek.

The journey back home seems to take forever today.
the most torturous now i'm going through it again.
Whatever or however how much i tried, things just don't work out at all.
I always messed things up
I always yelled over nothing
I always cried at the slightest issues
I always turned my head away when i'm crying
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I always have a reason for my actions.
I cried cause I needed attention.
I yelled cause I had so much Nos in my heart
I turned away cause I never wants to let you sees me crying.
is it still my fault?
probably yes.

A text from you
" text you when im home ba "
and no news for like few hours?
I was worried, no appetite for anything.
holding back all my nonsensical tears and took up the courage to text you.
Ended up, all my worries goes down to the drain.
You tells me you at your friend's place watching show or something.
However i'm at my side worry for nothing.
Now i really feels that i'm the biggest fool.

Why am I doing all these?
I really feeling like a big tard fool now.
He's glad without me.
All he needs, his friends (:
I always silently asks myself...
Who am I to him actually?
Been struggling between those answers
now I really felt total numbed.

Is this gonna be another big shocked birthday present in advance?
then i rather not have it.
I do not want last year issues happen to me again on my birthday this year.
One day if I stopped crying, doesnt mean that I'm no longer hurt, just that its getting worst. (:

at 16:15

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Let's have these pictures to do all the talkings
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He and his advertising ._.