♥ Memories...

♥ Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Let photos do talking. Not in the mood to type so much...

Birthday card made by winnie, joyce and humin.

old pixar

say goodbye bangs.

Kate spade from winnie, joyce and huimin (: LOVES

15-03-09. Thats HANNAH! (: unglam

Salinah say cheese~

Nat in the house.

Natasha the crazy clique!

Thanks for the lovely flower surprise!

him.

my birthday dinner from baby and fabian @ Dian xiao er.

Squeeeze bangs!

baobei and me

Photos in sequence though.

By dates.

Current mood - empty

at 15:51

♥

其实他做的坏事我们都懂

没有什么不同

眼光闪烁暧昧流动闭上眼当作听说

其实别人的招数我们都懂

没有什么不同

故作软弱撒娇害羞只是有一点别扭

傻瓜也许单纯地懂

爱得没那么做作爱上了我不保留

傻瓜我们都一样

被爱情伤了又伤

相信这个他不一样

却又再一次受伤

傻瓜我们都一样

受了伤却不投降

相信付出会有代价

代价只是一句傻瓜

at 15:12

♥

I just reached home not long ago.

After a long night spent outside..

I sees things much more clearly now, no longer able to bother so much.

The thorn in my heart will always be her.

anyway i should have just close my eyes and ignore her existence itself.

If not things will be so so hard for me.

Im sure that things will work out better this time.

Thanks danzer! (:

been there always.

I need a rest.

tired after a long clueless thinking night...

Do i mean alot to you?

How much will that be?

tell me a price, i'll pay for it.

at 11:49

♥ Monday, March 30, 2009

May my friend rest in peace (:

Life can be so so vulnerable.

We will remember him deep down in our hearts

at 17:28

♥

Despites all the sadness and tears.
we're back to normal!
He has been very tolerant towards my temper all these while.
No matter how i threw my temper at him when i got all shits from work, he just there telling me everything will be alright and just a hug from him make me so so contented.
I feel safe whenever im with him.

I always grumble saying he got no time for me.
probably im just afraid that things will never go my way.
However if i dont behave that way, things will naturally goes my way.
I should relax myself to prevent misunderstandings..
Moreover i knew that things will be alright over time...
Sunday which is yesterday,
headed over simei to look for baby.
He got himself ready and we headed out.
Movie over at suntec..
Confessions of a Shopaholic.
Can you believe it?
Baby actually watches that with me!
I didnt know he will watch it with me (:
probably the both of us have the same thinking.

We dislikes shows like musical highschool.
it will just bored the both of us out totally.
But i feel loved!
He mentioned " i know you wanted to watch it so much so i decide to watch too "
aww~
It's a nice show..
I rate it 9/10.
Some parts really so comical that both of us laughing out so loudly in the cinema.
baby isn't feeling very good as he's still having slight flu,
so here am i having slight flu too.

Took our dinner at some Korean restaurant.
Know what i forget to bring my wallet out today, & i told baby.
He just shaked his head.
okay lar, im silly okay?
I changed my bag then forgot to put my wallet in only mah...
._.
Baby had BBQ Saba Fish and I've my BBQ Chicken (:
the SABA fish is not as fantastic so isn't a very fantastic dinner.
After dinner, we headed back home as baby isn't feeling well.
Bid goodbye over at the station itself.
After bidding goodbye, then i realised i miss him so much.
Its gonna be 1 week not meeting him, the schedules crashes.
My off day falls on his night shift.
It's okay, i know cannot be help either.
So...
just meet next week!
(:

Ranting stops here...
I need to snuggle under my blanket in 5 minutes time.
Good Night!
I love you babylove (:

i love being hugged tightly by you

at 00:54

♥ Saturday, March 28, 2009

If you wander off too far, my love will get you home.
If you follow the wrong star, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.

If the bright lights blinds your eyes, my love will get you home.
If your troubles break your stride, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.

If you ever feel ashamed, my love will get you home.
When there's only you to blame, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.

If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home,
Boy, my love will get you home.

Today im on morning shift.

mood never turns any better. however it got kind of worst.

started my day a very bad one, i burst into tears at the selling floor itself with dashnee.

been a long time ever since i felt this way.

my heart sank right bottom and broke into pieces...

what's going on?

harsh messages given, cold treatment taken.

what am i to you?

someone that you truly love or otherwise?

tell me, i dont wish to pin hopes ended up things become so differently..

I dont want my paperheart bleeds anymore.

i no longer wanna pretend that im happy when im crying deep inside.

you said you never treat me like how others did.

you promised never let me go through all these anymore.

you told me everything will be fine.

you assured to walk with me through hardship and never let me be alone crying.

you mentioned that promises not being fulfil there's no point talking so much.

i'm here now trying so hard to get things done, trying hard to be the most ideal girlfriend you wants me to be.

i did try, did you see it?

i'm sorry

at 15:06

♥ Friday, March 27, 2009

Don't probe. I've no idea why am i posting this lyrics here.

Just so happen that it churns around in my brain when im listening to my ipod on my way to work earlier on.

I've puffy eyes recently, too recent till i'm just way too tired to even open my eyes..

working on afternoon shift today, however my mood just isn't right today anymore.

Thanks to those who cares, i'm getting well.

Thanks to the one that rush over when i'm at the lowest point at times.

I wanna go for a short runaway, away away for a little moment.

Be it work or life. I need a break from everything at times too.

I dislikes to force myself to smile when i'm not at all.

Goodbyes.

走在人挤人的走道我问了自已

没有爱情的人是否会长命

那些电影常常让人感觉甜蜜

但是我不相信

坐在没有人的角落我又问自已

究竟应该继续还是该放弃

没有人能了解我现在的心情

想看你想躲你难以决定

每当我想靠近

你总会装冷静

眼看你的表情仿佛已经说明

我只想要证明

我们这段爱情

也许在你眼里它只是个游戏

我只想要靠近

也很想要抱紧

会想到那过去和现在新的你

我还想要参与你的生活点滴

只要你肯相信

我一定会陪你走下去

能不能够让我再说我爱你

还是你已不想听能

不能够把你彻底的忘记我是真的搞不清

每当我想靠近你总会装冷静

眼看你的表情仿佛已经说明

我只想要证明

我们这段爱情也许在你眼里它只是个游戏

我只想要靠近也很想要抱紧

会想到那过去和现在新的你

我还想要参与你的生活点滴

只要你肯相信我一定会陪你走下去

只要你再相信我们会轻轻地靠在一起

at 17:32

♥ Thursday, March 26, 2009

I didn't realised that things could fall so nicely and perfectly at times.
At the lowest part of my life, things change.
A drastic change in my life, or rather my love life after a long period of time.

5 Years ago, we both fell in love so sweetly.
The story begins with him starting to post our love stories up one by one.
The story of 小猪 & 大猪 .
Everyone trying to find out who is the main person actually, i'm the lucky one.
Being the ever sweetest little boyfriend, doesn't even mind travelling down all the way from Simei to Chinese Garden to spend for few hours with the one he loves.
tensions begin when things went wrong not because of third party is because of something else.
Apologies doesn't help anymore.
Ignoring and crying is all she does that period of time..

She cries to bed everyday, cried during school times.
Boy rushes down after school down to Chinese garden to wait for her.
However, she's too upset to go anywhere therefore she hangs up his call and made him waited the whole afternoon over at the station. He left station after few hours as he's feeling as upset and disappointed.
Due to this issue, the story of the both of them just ended so abruptly.

One day...
He got himself a new girl, someone which she knows..
She got so heartbroken however she kept everything to herself & wishes them have the world happiness together.
Slowly she picked herself up from all of these.
No longer in contact as afraid misunderstanding between the new relationship of his.

2 Years later, she met someone new.
Assume that the someone new will be the one for her. However gradually things never go towards her flow, things changes after 2 years of relationship.
A broken heart in return.
Picking herself up once again so hard this time round...

During 2008, he came back with a call from her good friend, Jennifer.
Returned his call and chatted on the phone for hours, he broken up with the girl which goes into relationship for four years..
As times goes by, things changes after 5 years.
We have so much to chat about from the past till present.
He asked for my hand, i agreed as feeling for him came back after 5 years apart.
Realising that he's the one that i wanted all along, and so is he.

Till now, love is going so strong.
The mutual understanding between us is growing stronger than what we actually believes in.
Though in relationship there bound to be ups and downs, we're sure that we able to cross over all obstacles holding our hands tightly together and never ever wanna let go of each other anymore.
Commitments made, promises to fulfil...
In time to come, walking down aisle together.
Now we continue our love story..
it begins with 滚滚 & 小红鱼
I could see my future with him around, clearly pictured out how happy and loving we will be.
We may be busy working and too busy for each other at times, but our heart are link and thinking of each others. (:
This will be my one and only never ending love story, once begins never ends.
There'll only be happy ending, in years to come.
there'll be 小小滚滚 & 小小红鱼 o:
I love you hubby...

Can anyone believes that after 5 years apart, you'll be back together with someone that you fell for so deeply in the past?
Someone that you once let go due to some misunderstanding?
Will you cherish / treasure this time round?

at 22:02

♥

i've no idea why am i being so so tired today.

Went out after work with peifen, snow and their bfs.

Dine in over at FarEast Ramen Ten and roamed around aimlessly in Orchard itself.

Headed our way to Plaza Singapura as they wanna get something over there.

Probably i'm too restless therefore i'm feeling rather moody.

Today working in the morning shift.

My body seems to get up at the wrong side of the bed.

Yesterday around midnight cooked something for myself and scalded my hand carelessly.

i just lose my concentration totally.

eyes closing slowly.

blog later.

I miss my babylove badly ):

at 14:27

♥ Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Love can be so beautiful, yet so hurtful at times.

Obstacles will be there awaiting, depending how both parties handle it.

I'm just a simple woman.

I just need you to be there to listen and hug me tightly.

Time will prove everything.

However, you're still my one & only.

met up with baby over at his place today after submitting reports and paperwork in the office.

bought some puffs over at Mr Bean's for baby and his family.

it's like kind of late when i reached his place, feeling so so tired. Not knowing why either, probably due to the heavy morning rain in the morning..

Passed the little surprise i got for him, he's like o_o

he's just so bad at guessing my surprises for him.

Though it's nothing much or rather expensive but i know he needs it and cherished it (:(:(:

went out for our first meal with baby over at simei.

after food, baby bought his beloved phone's screen protector.

then he insist of walking into Starbucks to get my craves for muffin.

however, i've no interest in Starbuck ones. So basically i dragged him out and we rented dvd.

baby took my ring and wore it happily for the whole day.

Watched dvd and baby's mummy cook dinner for us.

By the time we finishes the show, it's already turning 9pm.

Time always passes so fast whenever i meet him up, how i wish i could stop the time from ticking away...

We sorted things out, so much happen lately.

i headed home via cab and received baby's sms.

I never wants to behave that way, you just meant so much so much to me.

I just wanna remove or rather say no more to nonsense.

Able to see my future with you around. (:

Loving you silly baby.

at 00:30

♥ Tuesday, March 24, 2009

I've just finished doing up my report of my off-in-lieu.

It's already 3:30am.

finally it's my off day.

been so so long period of time i didn't really rest my mind well.

got so much to rant at, however no time and no one for me to.

baby told me that he's just a phone away yet things isn't going that way now.

he simply too busy for me, be it his off day or working shift.

you people or probably anyone will be thinking..

why am i not being understanding?

I merely need someone to talk to, someone that means a lot a lot to me.

Goodnight.

I miss you (:

at 03:25

♥ Monday, March 23, 2009

Let those photos do the talking for me. Hit Powerhouse on the Saturday night with winnie, Joyce and Jansen. Met Alvin over there (: Jansen came over to fetch me at RafflesCity after work.

Empty stomach & im going over there. Jansen is being nice by ordering chicken wings for the ladies. Everyone wearing black except for Alvin. Alvin introduced us his so called " wanna date gf " to us. HAHA & he went missing from the crowded dancefloor.

The music isn't as fantastic as my birthday bash week. So the ladies feel kind of bored though.. Went over to Dragonfly for just a little while and we headed our way to Tiong bahru for my super late dinner or rather super early breakfast. headed home straight after food! Went back to work at 11am instead of 1pm. Slept at 5am, woke up at 9am. Horrible!

The overcrowding fun-less night!

The clinques

Hi JANSEN!

Joyce is mine (:

Winnie belongs to me

I look horribly tired

the super related

enjoyable though

dancing the night away

snappy!

i'm a bad camerawoman that day

ultimate snap

say cheeze

Cheeky!

at 00:45

♥ Sunday, March 22, 2009

Marathon.

I never feel this way for such a long long period of time.

Probably only apparel have this kind of life..

warrior survives dont they?

GOOD LUCK CANDY!

2 MORE DAYS & You'll entitled to ONE pathetic off and you gonna work throughout again.

Bless me everyone.

Baby i need your support badly (:

at 10:05

♥

So not getting used to it.

I'm trying hard, trying hard to ignore the sudden missing in actions acts you gave.

I've walked this far, the most longest route ever.

Will you ever wonder...

I'm here, worrying so badly yet could only wait patiently at the other side of the mobile.

I no longer enjoys partying when you just go missing all of sudden.

I no longer able to concentrate while working.

I no longer have appetite for anything.

I miss you like no one business, are you?

Big sighs.

I no longer cry when i miss you so so badly.

at 04:02

♥ Saturday, March 21, 2009

Another shocking news.
Next week, only 1 off day.
When the hell am i gonna be able to meet up with baobei?
):
Im indeed upset, too over.
Tell me, are they doing the right thing by killing me slowly of giving 1 off day per week?
Sighs..
Will baby feel how i feel?

Tonight i'm meeting up with Winnie, Joyce, Jansen & Alvin!
Hitting StJames Powerhouse (:
To hell with work!

at 21:02

♥

A conv between me and my procrastinating boyf

Snooze my time away in the morning.

I hit my back real hard today.

fell off the sit'n'bounce ball.

What a bad starts for work.

Anyway...

dinner with Jennifer.

home sweet home.

Tomorrow confirmed meeting up with Joyce, Winnie, Jansen and Alvin over at powerhouse.

Just a short one this time, Sunday got to work still...

P.S Baby : I'm good at surprising, you're bad at guessing (:

at 00:17

♥ Friday, March 20, 2009

Puffy eye bags,

body aches,

phone being quiet,

eyes closing slowly,

thinking of baby,

missing him so much so much (:

I just wanna hug you to bed like how we used to (:

at 01:04

♥ Thursday, March 19, 2009

It's gonna be a marathon week for myself as well as baby (:

I gonna be working throughout the week till next week then able to meet up with that Mr Andy.

I dont know what i will become, probably will be so so tired to the extend that i didnt even wanna step out of the house.

Something happen to me today, got so so upset and angry.

I just bottled everything to myself then just sit my 1 hour break away fuming super tensed up.

Baby was so busy that i didn't even want to disturb by calling him up just to tell him what happen to me.

But seems like he could feel that something happen,

received calls from him after my breaktime.

I felt so so much better after hearing his voice over at the other side of the phone...

I calmed myself down, no choice i have to.

As what baby told me, this is work.

We just got to swallow all those nonsense down..

I miss those times..

I miss him piggyback me when im too lazy to walk.

I miss when he just teased me.

I miss those silly things he've done for me.

How silly can i be?

The quarrels make the both of us realised how important and how much we care for this relationship.

How much we trying to put in this relationship to work things out in a better manner.

How much he meant to me or either how much i meant for him.

No matter what i do, he's always there to hold me.

I threw temper, he will be there holding my hands and hug me tightly till i calmed myself down.

Many asked me..

Meeting up once a week, am i used to it?

Initially of course not, i'm just like some normal girl which is so so clingy to him.

However, slowly i realised that when we meet lesser.

The misses that i have for him or rather he have for me is much much more than anything else.

We'll be so looking forward to meet up even for 5 minutes.

I'm so glad that i knew he's trying and working towards our commitments in future.

I could see clearly how are we gonna build our future slowly...

Things happen for a reason, fate bought us back after years...

We cherished each other more than anything else.

I've a million things wanna do for him,

however the only thing which i've done for him is to fall deeply in love with him.

Say i'm mushy queen or drama queen.

Relationship bounds to have obstacles.

Not saying that for this relationship for me and andy is a smooth one.

We do have our rough patches too.

Things turn out even better as we do actually knows what the both of us are looking at...

Down the road, i'm no longer candy.

I'll be his mrs tan... the only one (:

Okay, the penguin's fish is tired.

Fish promised that she will do anything just to make this relationship works well &

never ever let penguin's hand off. She will never let penguin slip out of her life just like the past.

Fish wanna be with penguin and walking down the aisle with penguin, spending her whole life allowing penguin to hold fish's fins.

I love you, i meant it (:

sidenote : Baby i love you this much !

----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- just as much as you do (:

at 01:16

♥ Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Thanks to those who wishes me a happy 21st (:

Let me list everyone out that shares my happiness. . .

Baby sent me a long message when he's busy on duty at 12:05am,

he's being the sweetest hubby (:

Alright...

Thanks ...

BABY!

Alex Sim, Samantha Sim, Vincent, Danzer, Ban, Waikiat, Ryan, Baobei Peifen, Snow, Shengyew, Hanxiang, Serina, Michelle, Winnie, Joyce, Huimin, Jansen, Alvin, Fabian, Jennifer, Lynn, Ana, Hannah, Salinah, Fathin, Natasha, Jean, SharonWong, Jannah, Marvin, Edwin, Stanley, Reginnaaa, Nut, Kerin, Thomas, Jessica Lee, Eva, Denis, Goldie.

Hope i didnt miss anyone out. (:

I was surprised by my colleagues that they actually plan a surprise birthday cake when doing atrium set up. Thanks so much ladies, you all really make me so so happy.

- Ana, Hannah, Salinah, fathin, Natasha (: Thanks THANKS! (:(:

Thanks Winnie, Joyce, huimin, Jansen and Alvin making my celebration over at Powerhouse a great one and the bak kut teh after dancing! (:

& sidenote : Thanks ladies for the gorgeous gift you given! Kate spade makeup pouch with Annasui products; manicure thingy and a sanitary pad which joyce put in (:

Thanks to my most beloved mummy for planning a steamboat session for me, those that attend were : Mummy, Alex & girlf , Samantha, Minky, Elyse, Boyboy.

Mummy handed me a necklace and insist me wearing it on. (: THANKS I LOVE YOU!

Thanks Elyse for the bag you bought for me too! (:

Thanks JENNIFER for the birthday gift and birthday feast on 17th March! U've always been the greatest listener and confidant of all... I love the gift you bought, u bought something which i LOVEEEE~ So I LOVE U OK?! DEEPDEEP!

Thanks to the most important person in my life now..

Mr Andy! Please be so so honoured alright?

My happiest thing is having you by my side on my birthday itself, you're the best gift from heaven to me for my 21st birthday..

I promised to be a good girlf of yours, the sweetest one that you ever had and only have from now onwards.

I love you silly hubby (:

I'll blog more.

Photos will be up...

at 00:20

♥ Monday, March 16, 2009

I promise i'll blog tmr.
Had the bash celebration photos already.
it's 4:30am now, I'm heading bed real soon.

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY !

Thanks for all the wishes i've gathered from all my lovelies.
I'm so so loved.

I love my boyf the mosttt!

at 04:28

♥

I'm so so happy!

Thanks to those came over to my mini bash over @ powerhouse (:

Baby(: , Fabian ! Thanks for dropping over for awhile.

Thanks Winnie, Joyce and huimin for making my day a blast one.

The surprise present from the 3 of you really surprises me to the max, i love it.

Hit powerhouse with them and 2 other guys.

Alvin and Jansen.

Been such a long period of time ever since i hit the club once again.

I'm 21 this year (:

it marks the most important day of my life.