♥ Tuesday, July 27, 2010
Anyway was surprised.Didn't expect that I will actually bump into her this evening...
However to avoid being awkward as there's other people around, I chose to walk away even without turning back.
At times I wonder, maybe I could do even better.
As this might be the same thing she'll do if she's me.
Nobody stops you from doing anything against your wish, the only person is you & yourself.
(:
♥ Friday, July 23, 2010
"I'm too tired to feel anything"
This sentence just make me totally feel like dying.
I know I shouldnt be so unreasonable that wants you to accompany me when you have to be at the wake.
However I rushed over from home, reason being why?
Cause you said we couldn't meet today which is Friday and hopes to see me on Thursday instead..
What did I get by rushing down despite having bad flu?
You arriving home only at 11 plus at night when I was already almost deep into sleep.
Next morning hoping that you could at least wake up and sent me down to work as thought that you might feel bad of the night before... However no?
I was fumed, disappointed and mad at myself...
Not you cause why? I HAVE TO BE understanding at all times to you especially this period of time.
What's worst?
I asked and told you how I felt...
You made it as if is all my fault for actually rushed over and expect you to come back early to accompany me?
Who is the one that wants me to accompany?
Okie fine, its alright.
What did you say after I told you what happen and how I felt?
"too tired to feel anything."
You totally shut me off by this sentence.
What am I?
I felt so much like a toy or a rag doll.
I tried so much to be there as much as you wants me to even if you said ultra harsh and hurtful unnecessary stuff to me that I felt total like a bitch.
However you only look for me when you got no one to turn to.
I wonder, who am I to you
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I gets tired too however did I even say a single thing like this?
I doubt so.
♥ Monday, July 19, 2010
Been getting a little unwell now.
Mentally and physically.
Hahaha
Anyway just wanna wish Uncle Andy Tan a very
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Happy Birthday!
♥ Tuesday, July 13, 2010
I realized no matter how careful are you, things will still be misplaced when you can 101% confirm you did keep the stuff away.How foolish!
Arghs just another rant regarding work.
Not knowing why am I feeling rather distracted at work lately... Big sighs.
Shall not blog about it, brush it off and get it over and done with...
Need a wallet badly!
Sigh. Can I wish for a Burberry wallet?
Arrr.
So much to get however so much restriction!
Anyway, now just hope that things will naturally gets better in time.
Someone once told me, things will get better in time to come...
Wonder wonder wonder...
Just live life to the fullest, cherish everything and everyone around you.
I lost twice, if I got the chance again I will definitely treasure you.
Sleepyhead now!
With loves,
Candy
♥ Saturday, July 10, 2010
Ruins!Hate it!
You claimed that should have some time management however I think that is useless!
What the hell mean by you gonna watch soccer @ 2.30am?
When you don't even like to watch in the first place?
ARGH!
Idiot!
I HATE you
yes, all you do is to annoy me then why do you still have to ask if I wanna go out or anything?
Fucks...
Annoyed and Irritated totally, dont even wanna see you now.
♥ Wednesday, July 7, 2010
I realized that I hasn't been really rant about every detail of my life for quite some times...I gained and at the same time I loses things and people whom are important to me.
I would actually prefer to gain lesser so I won't have to lose people around me.
Stopped drinking for quite sometimes, however club only when there's occasions like birthdays or special events or rather gathering...
Working life now seems to be rather dull at times when thats all you can do at work!
Arghs!
It's like repeating everything all over again and again and again...
At one point of time, one of my colleague look at me and tells me ...
" Candy why do you seems to be rather happy even for the most annoying patients you got? "
I replied " at times we do not even have a choice to choose don't we? "
What to do!
This is life, the one that I couldn't choose for...
However I have one that I can choose, the memory that belongs only to me.
Friendships, the one which is the most important cause a decade of bond is there however I know now things are different... Everyone moves on, you claims that you changed however I felt that I'm the one being stubborn and struggling against myself with those issues that happen.. Well, I can't do much either Just SMILE! cause to me you are the best girlfriend I've got for these years as without your support I wouldn't have grown so strong.. You taught me and bring me to see the reality... (: I miss clubbing and drinking with you! Thanks woman!
Family, my mum is a darling to me & you... Yes, you are my the other family too.. My temper and nonsense is ever changing, probably I should change to have a smoother route to my the other half of my life spent with you.
Nothing can compare, every little thing that happen or rather passes by my life will leave a footprint thus I could have the slightest memory about them.
That's the most important thing in life, without memories I wouldn't be here either...
Argh! Im so tired right now...
Feeling very tired, stiff shoulders and LBP again?!
LBP - Lower back pain
Hahahas!
Tatas,
Nights
♥ Monday, July 5, 2010
If only I have the ability of pretending like how you did, I wouldn't have so many countless heartbreaks given by you.Be it those harsh words given, you walking out on me, leaving me all along hiding from all these emotions from the cruel reality. I grown up, I let go is to prevent from more heartbreaks.
I smile, doesn't mean I'm not hurt
I laughs, doesn't mean I'm not wounded
It only meant that countless of heartbreaks totally numb my heart from you.
I only yearns for happiness, yet my happiness seems so far away to reach.
My heart, is not for you to decide if you wanna handle it well.
Once and for all...
This time round, I'm really wounded probably more to stranded...
