Went office then to dhoby ghaut to meet jenn (:
bus-ed back with her. ate our dinner and off i go home.
There goes my off day. tmr is full shift, i might just die in the shop :
thats all. i got nothing to blog either..~

i want you to be happy. I knew i can be happy with what i am now (:

我讨厌阴天的风
冷得那么刺痛
只有你能够抚平所有的寂寞
昨天的风筝在角落
被谁丢到了路口
我很不想让你找到离开的理由
每一夜闭上眼睛我看到了恶梦
你微笑但是旁边的人不是我
天空切开一道裂缝直接割到我心中
不想装作脆弱
也不想爱得懦弱
其实我非常爱你
不想失去你

难道我没有权利说我不愿意
你给了他的吻
虽然只有余温
可知道我多渴望抓住你的心

我知道他很爱你
你怕他伤心
我每天假装开心
害怕你离去
可不可以任性
求求你不要去
藏在我心里最后一句
其实还爱你

可不可以任性
求求你不要去
藏在我心里
最后一句
其实还爱你

I'm just too worn-out to blog these days,
just imagine 1 week sleeping time not more than 13hours plus working nonstop.
I felt so much like breaking down anytime.
Oh yeah. That night went Bottoms Up with yongkang again.
This time round, just the two of us.
being too emo that very night. drank finish our unfinished chivas and a bottle of martell.
We didnt manage to finish the martell cause im sleepy plus i know if i continue drinking, i'll get drunk. (:

Went for supper at ard 2.30am?
Home alone at 3am, yk went out to find someone..
Woke up late for work the next morning.. i quitted smoking but started drinking my night away so i wont have insomania (:
i admit i'm already worn out, totally...

I gave up in the morning with 4 staffs of mine opening.
i'm just being owned.
so means no law as i've already given up for that particular moment!
Work is fun with jeannie around.
I just love to strangle her to death, my current hobby! (:
Thanks to sam too. (:
Below you can see how much i enjoyed myself with her around during work!


camwhore lovers

I wanna get well soon.
I want no more flu.
I want strawberries.
I want no worries.
I want to be a princess.
I want dublin mudslide icecream frm ben&jerry.
I want to eat pancake from tamp.
I want the world sweetest thing.
Can i?

I dont wanna work.
I dont wanna fall sick.
I dont wanna look at stars alone.
I dont wanna be the world foolish girl.
(:

I love to sing.
I love to eat.
I love to play under the rain.
I love being showered with loves.
I love the sweetest things in the world.
I love being nonsense.
I love chatting on the phone.
I love shopping.
I love tulip the most (((:
adores me ;D

从皮包里扯出我们的照片
沙发要移到客厅的另一边
晚饭后你可以多抽几口香烟
已经没什么人会埋怨

晴天阴天今天又是星期天
唯一的打算是醒得晚一些
反正我不知道怎样打发时间
出门或不出门没差别

一个人到底应该睡右边或左边
两个人连一次争吵都值得纪念
一个人偶尔感到寂寞再所难免
你的气味还留在枕头边

一个人我重新适应一切不方便
两个人不一定就成全一个世界
一个人关灯看见记忆的横切面
没有光线过去那些情节更明显...

更明显...

I'm down with bad bad flu, this time round i'm really sick.
After eating panadol it seems to get worst? i can't even stand too long.
Horrible feeling. Was having a feast in the backroom with jeannie (:
Decision made, will announce to everyone when the time is right.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ZAX !
tonight gonna play whole day. flu flu gets better after resting for whole night!
I shall blog more when inspiration comes! (:


is it tempting?

Due to my nonsense behaviour, i'm sick now.

DOWNPOUR !

i think i'm sick.
really fall asick...
btw after work, trained to buona vista.
supposingly to pass one unknown customer one merchandise.
i felt dumbed, its raining and i dont know the way.
cardi came down from tamp to accompany me to that customer's home.
some place name heritage condo. ._.

caught in the rain, alright im somehow playing.
after that saw that customer's mum.
she's unfriendly! " take so long! "
what the hell~ this is not part of my job okay?
damn it! i feel so unappreciated this time round~

walked back in the rain under the umbrella of cardi's,
sat down at the bus stop for like 12356547 minutes for the cab.
home sweet home.
thanks cardi (: you're being so sweet .

i get cranky at times.
the urge to ring u up just to hear your voice..
i think i'm getting mad, slowly i'm no longer myself.
its rainy day...
i no longer look at stars at night, cause i know u'll never be there with me.

Yeah~ Met up with Little benny at somerset.
went to cyberdrome to look for Silvy, lord's team.
i'm bored to death right outside cyberdrome, horrible 3 hours~
Saw Jadon and one girl. She's cute lar, esp her voice. ((:

after 3 hours, finally MOW training is over.
Little benny being naughty, took away the lighter that kenneth gave. ;
haaa~ and starts to strangle me like nobody business..
loitered outside cyberdrome finally decided to go for dinner.
guys are troublesome.
anyway i saw cardi ! :) he simply own3d me by saying he's shy when i say he dao me.
and we walk ALL the way from cyberdrome to Plaza singapura, i'm whining throughout to silvy..

Waited for the rest of the guys to reach dhoby ghaut control.
ended up alot of unknown people.
Like Mira, Kenn, Donny, Nerd, and xub . as well as fat evil (:
train-ed to outram park.
Wanchai-ing . Didn't drink much ~
Benny order " 1 coke for her "
Thanks smiling partner... (:
They simply starts to drink and order so much alcohol.
I'm being good girl, dont drink xiao\ying pls~
emo-ed awhile.

Beatrix came over? As usual Pro singer larr (:
xub drunk.
vomitted. ;
home sweet home everyone at 2am..
Went out after that a little while to meet my gf (:
No photos taken cause everything seems so messy!
but i did enjoyed myself cause i get to know new people ! (:

I'm back for rantings,
Got the mood back for dolling myself up just for the sake of making myself happy.
Reached shop and sam mentioned,
Sam : Hey going clubbing ar?
Candy : no ~ why?
Sam : cause today so sexy !
Candy : everyday 1 what~ runs !

Home sweet home after work with my this outfit,
all colleagues said " you going home?! don't lie~ "
Sorry to disappoint lar i really went home and rest~ (:

Today went to work, i'm late.
everything becomes so flustered due to the new membership thingy~
i'm being clumsy that i injured my bloody hand :
Alright lar i admit ok? i'm clumsy thats why!
Actually is morning shift, changed to full shift cause hengyong is tired and he have to work midnight!

Sam = samantha is sweet lar, buy me mocha frappucino from starbucks (:
she remembers what i like ~ she's being such a nice nice person.
home sweet home after work.
tomorrow gonna wake up for morning shift, and meeting little benny to meet silvy at cyberdrome~ and to wanchai (:
SWEETS


my outfit for 18/10


my left twist



ignore the mess behind .


linaa .


linaa again~



; 19/10


camwhore.




normaaa (:



thanks ili (:



thanks sam (: so sweet

BEN&JERRY
dublin mudslide early in the morning! (:

WHY?!
i know i'm no longer in your world.
your world unable to have me, cause u never loves me !
it will take me another month to forget you, dont ever come back again.
please~ just let me be the happy one rather than thinking of someone who's never mine!

off to work .

1) i dont want to be reminded there.
2) i dont know lord
3) is far
4) i will be tired after work
5) u all might stay long there. and i will die
6) nxt day wrking
7) no money
8) lack of rest already
9) gastric strike up so cannot drink
10 ) later i see u i miss u how? LOL

my 10 reasons for not going to wanchai this saturday for silvy (:
a little own3d but it helps...
multiple post today (:
happy + sad. = no emotional things.
I think im back to normal.
i hope ~ i am.

Met up with Jennifer for dinner.
Told her everything thats bottled up in my mind.
Bought something for myself to cheer myself up.
Its sucks to be upset, cause i spent money !
(:
I'll be okay~ i'll always remember the way you hold me..
that very day ;


LOVES <33




my fav mag (:

I'm devastated.
both work and my life just in a mess.
I need to reconsider whether i should run away or maybe leave this place
for time-being ? Just to sort out those mess that created by whoever or maybe myself.

I'll shed no more tears for anyone.
not even when i'm deeply hurt.
(: cause i want no one to see the real me anymore.
I'm deeply affected, very deeply...

pardon my eye bag


i admit i cried, so i need to wear that shades


my outfit for ytd (:


Sam says " blend myself into it " Nice try, but i did laugh (:

I love working with Sam,Nurul, Jeannie, simon, yk, and zax
never ending laughters and they never fail to cheer me up when im at my worst!
My off day being burnt due to Ladies Visual merchandising modelshop thats being
held at wisma gap this morning 630am .

Something just happen and made me broke down totally.
Tons of things a churning in my mind already, just like one more thing that strike me
i'll just breakdown.
" so i don't trust the incharge too? "
What you expect me to say even further? Do i have anymore things to hold me back in this
kind of working environment?
It's not getting anywhere anyway~
No trust then i shall not handle it already, pass it to someone that you all can trust.
FUCK OFF LAR!
I can be very strong but for godsake also know that im fucking vulnerable.
Just 1 sentence made my tears flow out just like that~
I wanna hold it back but what for.. I rather cry my heart out then keeping it inside.

I can't hold so much things in my heart,
i just broke down.
GOODBYE GAP. sooner or later will be my turn to leave this place.
I'm happy NOMORE.

. i'll upload those photos again, blogger error

I can't hold back my tears, those songs just reminds me of you.
our past.
that very night at the pub. ;
its only a few hours.
so shit. the feeling just simply so sucky.
CANDY WAKE UP! LET HIM OUT OF YOUR MIND!
be it in the past or present. forget bout it.
i knew its not getting anywhere, but it takes time.


on my way


same old pose


back to store


me and kenneth (:

-> anyway i took his coach's lighter? I TOOK. its not as a gift.