What affects me the most?
Its bothering me.
i dislikes the feeling this way.
who really understands how i feel?
stand in my position and think about how i feel will anyone?

i chose to run away from problems that i cant solve is not that im coward.
i just dont wish to lose out in anything.
not even friends.
i know its wrong to think that way, but what more can i do?

an hour of crying is enough.
that particular hour just murdered me.
i caught in that situation that i might just faint and go.
how i wish.
i dont wish to go back to the square one.
i hate myself to the max.
sorry mow.
i'm guilty.

GET A LIFE XIAOYING.
u meant nothing to anyone, dont you?
did they consider how you feel at that very moment?
i doubt.
where's are you all wheni needed most when im feeling fucking down?
no one.
just only cried myself on the phone with kenneth.
puffed eyes,
tears flow like river.
fucked. im back to the old me.
no longer.