♥ Friday, August 22, 2008
It has been raining since morning.
due to the weather, my mood changes.
due to environment, it changes people around me.
i feel that i'm floating alone, living alone, walking alone in this life of mine.
i never likes being yell at, i want to be love. that's all i want from you.
Things didn't get any better or to say, things got worst.
i shouldn't have made the move by calling.
now this issue is even bigger than normal.
it got worsen, i never believes that making move to do something it might indirectly hurt people around me or even myself.
i almost lose myself totally, almost.
who truely understand the real me?
been months, perhaps i changes but what causes the change?
the environment you gave, it changes me.
i becomes more selfish than normal.
i realised i'm no longer myself, no longer the one that smile happily anymore.
i always thought that i'm the happiest woman in the world and i'm contented.
but i just couldn't accept changes so sudden.
or i don't like changes.
it makes me feel useless, moreover something so precious.
maybe i will slowly adapt my life back to what i am used to, the one that doesn't really bother so much about how people feel.
it might lessen tension between people, and end the quarrels and tears of mine.
i no longer the same, i wanna be the strong one that i used to.
i'll change, this time round..
no one gonna change me back. is to protect myself and people around me.
i'm just being sensitive yet you never notice at all.
just put the blames on me, i wouldn't mind.
as long as things just go the way you want it to be.
am i really important to you?
screaming and yelling when im being sensitive from you.
all i do, i kept quiet and things got worsen.
keeping my feeling and holding back of how i feel next time round will be a better choice for everyone of us.
i'm sorry, i'm not perfect.
today
yesterday.
chloe sweetheart
adorable?
little pie
after. childhood
before
心碎成了沙漠 就快开凿绿洲
因为我已爱过你 深深的
