♥ Friday, January 16, 2009
So much so much happen to me these days.I'm trying, really.. trying to be strong.Cause i know i could do that, so no matter how unbearable the pain is..i bear with it with a smile.I pretends to be alright at work.I pretends to be happy whenever i goes.I pretend that everything is normal.till nowI pretend that i'm alright.I couldn't pretend that or even assume that i don't feel empty in my heart.I wants to cry but somehow there isn't any tears anymore.I ought to be strong like how people wants me to be.Everyone feels that i'm old enough to handle all these shits.Day time i'm still fine.Dislike the most still the nightfall..seems like i'm all alone all over again.facing everything alone.being a lonely one alone.i feel so empty, no one feels it.only myself.I may look very strong but i've my soft side.I tends to hide it just to protect myself to the extend no one really goes deep down to think..will i be alright? am i handling well enough?Am i tired by running all these all alone?will i breakdown all of sudden?Falling sick is another issue.Never been eating well lately, but i simply couldn't be bothered anymore.I'm tired.I need security just a little more.A little more concern these days.A little more of attention.A little more when im crying.im sorry, i ain't perfect
