♥ Tuesday, January 13, 2009
5th day.Imagine 5 days, mummy actually left house for the 5th days.In a state of confusion..In one part, i wants her to come back.But if she does, she wont be happy.ahhh~ mental torture.Not really in a very positive mind while working lately.didn't really had much rest either.Especially yesterday, as i totally has no appetite for anything.I shut off every meal.Went over to Paragon to look for Michelle.After finishing up with paperwork issue, we actually headed our way to Coffeeclub.Michelle wanna eat cake and coffee.so i just ordered a cup of Mocha Java.please just kill me.I totally forgotten i shouldn't have take coffee with empty stomach.So there it goes, gastric acts up the whole night.Makes me even worst out of the worst.When mummy is around, she will do anything just to make me go bed and ease that pain of mine.but...i want her to come back home so badly.sighs!so i actually stayed up till 4am then i fall asleep.i woke up like 10am this morning for work.For these 5 days, it has been this way.either i couldn't sleep or ..no appetite for anything.Probably i will go mad then mummy will be back.ARHH~this is driving me so mad, so mad.out with jennifer last night and met up with mum.as usual, i almost cried.whatever shit, call me crybaby or mummy girl.So what?! i love her like crazy.then talk awhile she went back already...killer.I feel like slapping the one that quarrels with her.The one that promised once, to take good care of her.is it all a lie?suddenly i feel that...marriage is all just a lie.All those promises, saying will love each other forever till the end of the time etc.is it just for the sake of saying it?I have no faith in marriage...As well as relationship.I'm just afraid, things change after a long run.So now in the emotional state, i might do things unexpectedly.so just ignore me, let me be.dont pester me, i will just shut you up by cursing.im sorry everyone.i'm too tired for everything
