♥ Memories...

♥ Tuesday, August 18, 2009

盼不到我爱的人
我知道我愿意再等
疼不了爱我的人
片刻柔情它骗不了人

我不是无情的人
却将你伤的最深
我不忍我不能
别再认真忘了我的人

离不开我爱的人
我知道爱需要缘分
放不下爱我的人
因为了解他多么认真

为什么最真的心
碰不到最好的人
我不问我不能
拥在怀中直到他变冷
爱我的人为我痴心不悔
我却为我爱的人甘心一生伤悲
在乎的人始终不对
谁对谁不必虚伪

爱我的人为我付出一切
我却为我爱的人流泪狂乱心碎
爱与被爱同样受罪
为什么不懂拒绝痴情的包围

离不开我爱的人
我知道爱需要缘分
放不下爱我的人因为了解他多么认真
为什么最真的心碰不到最好的人
我不问我不能
拥在怀中直到他变冷

爱我的人为我痴心不悔
我却为我爱的人甘心一生伤悲
在乎的人始终不对
谁对谁不必虚伪
爱我的人为我付出一切
我却为我爱的人流泪狂乱心碎
爱与被爱同样受罪
为什么不懂拒绝痴情的包围

Oveheard this song from someone in airport while waiting for the flight itself.
It's a very old song however it's very meaningful.
Somehow when i listens to this song quietly, as if it's singing from my deepest heart itself.
Direct translate of the song title will be " the person i love, and the person that loves me "
Song name is my title for this entry.

Anyway i know tons and million asking me if i could move on.
I already did, moved on with my life cause i know this is what that person really wish for.
I moved on doesn't mean i'll be able to accept the facts right?
& also accept anyone now.
I won't and I don't wish to.
Doubt that it's a need for someone beside me labelled my boyfriend.
I don't want when i starts to believe in things, the person leaves me for another reason.
2nd time i had this blow, after the 1st i thought i wouldn't have to go through it like 2nd time.
However i still have to go through it all over again for the 2nd time.

Spare a thought of how i feel at times.
I can be as vulnerable as what others may think i am.
I will also be exhausted by all these.
I just want to stay this way, yes its this way.
My heart fully occupied, no more space for anyone like now?
I don't wish to face any relationship at any moment.

I know..
Everyone says " been months" , " why still hanging there? "
You people ain't me.
Don't pretend that you knew me in out.
I'm this way, i really put in my best.
I want to be this way not asking anything from him or whatsoever.
I dont want when one day i really let go, thinking back that i actually regretted cause i didn't actually tried.
I tried,,,
to love him with everything
to be with him.
to be myself when im with him.
to make myself leave as i'd made mistakes
not to cry
not to let him feel that i'm his bad choice.
not to make him thinks all i does is cry.
not to allow anyone to say it's his fault.

It's me, i ruin my own happiness.
I deserved it.
Let me feel wasted here for this moment.
I know i'll be fine after a rest later.
That's all.
Good night

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