♥ Saturday, November 7, 2009
Been blogging a little lesser each day.Must be thinking...Confirm lazy to update right?!NO! I'm just do not know what to blog when I did not go anywhere but to stay home be good girl.Hahaha!Few days more I'm starting work like again?After 2 weeks of rest at home, new start? New workplace, new environment, new colleagues means new things.Arrggss~Whatever it is, I'll try to adapt to new things soon right?
Lately been thinking a little way too much. Too much for what i supposed to.What's love actually?&Who can be the one that tolerate my nonsensical temper? My ever changing moodswings?Hahaha!I doubt i could find anyone already.Don't mentioned those that already in the past like Mr D, Stan & Ban of course.Anyway...I told Alvin..."I'm not even sure if I could commit into our relationship between the both of us, I'm just afraid things will never go my way""I doubt you could tolerate my temper"& he replied..."Aiya time will tell us the answer""I also thought so too"I just simply went blankHahahaProbably I just lost for words, not knowing how to continue it.Like what Ms J told me...Follow your heart, stop using your brain to think!I can't!Cause I do not want to regret with decision, I'm bad at decision-making.So at times I will tends to leave the problems or issues there to decide by themselves.I know it's a little foolish to do things this way or can say that I'm actually avoiding problems.Yes i know I am.
Okay, I just wanna be happy for now (:Enjoying myself and indulges myself in love.Why not right?Being happy is the prime factor.Fishes are meant to be set free so they swims happily not to be tank-ed!
I wanna know what love is...I want you to show me...I wanna feel what love is...I know you can show me~~~A song by Mariah Carey Nice song, nice lyrics, meaningful enough for those trying to know what's actually love?
At times, i felt that marriage are bullshitsas I seen the worst out of marriage.Even for my very own family.I can't even do anything to salvage it but to stand there looking at things start changing in my family.Helplessly to adapt to the damage done.How useless?
Just a question to ask...How lovely can you be, down the road for 20 years?,or 30 years?Or rather only 2 years down the road?Do you people still remembers the pledge taken?I doubt so, somehow things will change.Humans are all the same, they forget about it after some times.When it's gone, they starts to regret and remembers what they used to promise their partner.I do not want that to happen to me.So whatever i do, I'll try my very best to achieve it in order not letting the other party felt disappointed.
Just like now...I believed that things might work out beautifullyif things are meant to be (:
Such a long-winded post of mine.Have you already closed this window?Hahaha!Tell me how it feels to be in love.Let me know the feeling of love again, will you?
Good nights all!With loves,Candy
