♥ Sunday, February 28, 2010
When I sees you turn your back at me and walked awaymy heart feels the squeeze and my tears rolled down my cheek.The journey back home seems to take forever today.the most torturous now i'm going through it again.Whatever or however how much i tried, things just don't work out at all.I always messed things upI always yelled over nothingI always cried at the slightest issuesI always turned my head away when i'm crying...I always have a reason for my actions.I cried cause I needed attention.I yelled cause I had so much Nos in my heartI turned away cause I never wants to let you sees me crying.is it still my fault? probably yes.A text from you " text you when im home ba "and no news for like few hours?I was worried, no appetite for anything.holding back all my nonsensical tears and took up the courage to text you.Ended up, all my worries goes down to the drain.You tells me you at your friend's place watching show or something.However i'm at my side worry for nothing.Now i really feels that i'm the biggest fool.
Why am I doing all these?I really feeling like a big tard fool now.He's glad without me.All he needs, his friends (:I always silently asks myself...Who am I to him actually?Been struggling between those answersnow I really felt total numbed.
Is this gonna be another big shocked birthday present in advance? then i rather not have it.I do not want last year issues happen to me again on my birthday this year.One day if I stopped crying, doesnt mean that I'm no longer hurt, just that its getting worst. (:
