Not knowing the reason either. just like the break up.

Everything came so sudden...

I'm silly or rather stupid enough to message him in Facebook asking for the reason when I jollywell knows that he wouldn't reply to it...

Everyday hoping to log in Facebook to see his reply, how silly!

Anyway, there's lots of thing I wanna say however too much restriction.

I rather not risk it...

Zay is nice but I shouldn't be so selfish.

Whereby my heart still holds someone so special still, why make another person feeling miserable when knowing the truth that actually I hasn't moved on either?

Awaiting for something that I will never ever get to know the truth.

I only wants you continue to be my friend then I'll be able to know if you are happy or upset about anything.

Didn't you say you just wanna be friends?

Why when I comes to the term of friends and you just walk away again?

I tried so hard for the past 6 months, I knew we are impossible to be back together.

I just wanna stay as friend to know if you are alright.

Isn't that hard right?

Why just push me away? Making me feel that i'm all unwanted again.

Fell sick, thought I recovered as do not want to stay home thinking so much.

Headed to work and was sent home due to badly unwell.

2 days mc, means I have the ample time to be real upset about this incident.

I always cry when I'm having fever, this time round I cry even worst cause knowing the fact that you refuse to even be a friend.

What did I do to deserve this?

The one I love most pushing me away to the cliff yet I'm willing...

Everyone thought that I'm alright just because I smiled and claimed that I'd moved on.

I hasn't, why do you even believe that I am?

When I myself couldn't believe myself either... I didn't move on at all...

Standing at the same place, not moving and refuse to move.

I do not know if you will see this post or no longer logging into my blog.

However I wanna tell you that I'm still here hoping for the best of you.

Take care,

uoyssimI, nivla 90020171

Chatted with Tina regarding her crestfallen marriage out of sudden.

Somehow I feels for her...

Everything that her husband did, is to make her give up on him...

I believe that guys shouldn't be so selfish taking all decisions by his own.

Have they ever asked about what the woman really wants?

Is divorce or a break up needed? Why couldn't just let things cool down for a period and just talk about it?

Why so firm about letting go of everything that used to be so perfect?

I don't get it...

She cried badly, begged and felt helpless.

Nothing changes her husband to go back to her.

Is this gonna end?

I feel that she's at the verge of breaking down, totally drained out...

Same situations that I'd been through 6 months back.

Just that hers is her marriage fallen apart, mine is my total happiness torn apart.

I used to be like her, fancy thinking everything that is so perfect wouldn't end.

However it ended abruptly.

I begged, cried and nothing makes him stay...

Bearing all consequences all alone.

Just wanna tell him, as long as you are happy I wouldn't mind doing anything.

I just want to see him being happy.

That's life I guessed?

No one likes it this way either, neither am I.

1 more hour to the 6th months you left me, I prays hard

for your happiness...

Once loved,

you

Ah! Don't really feel very good, it seems rather worst now.

Anyway, AO Trauma workshop begins today!

Well, everything went smoothly however it's way too early for me!

Hmm, good job lovely ladies and 1 man!

Saw lots of our previous Ortho doctors also JT.

Well... rather weird thought he wouldn't talk to me however surprisingly he did and after then he avoided me to save the awkwardness.

Tsk!

Okay i'm so tired....

Fugged

for you, silly

:\ I know its impossible

Someone told me to give him till this date.

Given, granted and now I'm back at the same old track.

Walking alone, so silly to even have the slightest believe to him.

Hahaha!

I guessed I preferred to be alone now, not knowing why or maybe I'm still waiting for the one.

The one that promised to love me forever.

still you...